♥...i am bored...♥

the end.

2006-10-02T20:31:00.000-07:00

this is the end of "...i am bored" the blog. here lies a new beginning.

tidbits of news...

2006-09-20T15:41:00.000-07:00

mood: HAPPY! :)
music: nothing at the moment.

so my mind is racing so this is in list form...

* i am going to guns'n'roses tonight! and sebastian bach is opening so i get to see someone from gilmore girls in person! (i am actually getting kinda excited for this--despite nate being the one dragging me along.)

* i bought myself an expensive present: a black 30 gb video ipod! i'm so excited! i never buy techno-gifts for myself. EVER! (not since the replay tv and that was YEARS ago)

* i finally got my medical stuff taken care of & actually spoke to my doctor today so i'm jazzed about that!

* i saw "the last kiss" on sunday w/ laura (and ran into jeff there). the movie was okay... not incredible. i wanted more of casey affleck. cutie!

* i also saw "hollywoodland" with nate and thought it was pretty good--and that ben affleck was also pretty good. i also have a crush on adrian brody. :D nate has a crush on ben affleck. major man-crush.

* i went w/ joce to the caravan last friday night. we met up for some pizza chicago before hand. yummy. caravan = LOUD crappy opening band.

* i am going up to clear lake this weekend cuz my parents rented a house. so me & nate get to spend saturday up there on a boat attempting to fish... maybe (the fishing part)

* i am COMPLETELY obsessed with grey's anatomy (DO NOT TELL ME ANYTHING THAT HAPPENED IN SEASON 2). i netflixed season 1 & finished it right quick... then i had to find a copy of disc 1 of season 2 because netflix had it as a "very LONG wait"... so after 3 video stores i found it! hurray! i finished watching the first disc this morning, and discs 2 & 3 should be there when i get home today from work. mmmmm dr. mcdreamy.... very cute. good acting. well written. good music!

* i checked out studio 60 (new aaron sorkin show) and thought it was pretty good. sharp like west wing... but with more popculture/comedy aspects. im gonna pick up this show for my regular watching schedule.

* i caught up with battlestar galactica in time for the new season to begin. GREAT show. i know this earns me more nerd points.

* berenice's party bus on saturday was INSANE. insane in a crazy waste-of-money, going-to-complain-to-the-company sort of way. oh well. at lease i've got a story to tell about that night. i think i'm more looking forward to going out for her bday on sunday (sushi night w/ just us four - b, me, tish, laura-- girls).

* me & nate checked out the CARE dog adoption event on saturday and we were sad because they didnt have any of the dogs out for you to pet or play with. so the doggies were getting anxious in their cages having people around. they just wanted some attention! hopefully we'll be able to get a dog within a year!
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think that's all for now.
xoxoxo

nic

i want to kick valley health plan in their shins...

2006-09-01T13:19:00.000-07:00

i am very annoyed at my health plan services right now! i have been waiting to get a prescription refilled for over a month and after many times waiting in long lines, several phonecalls and orders and call-backs to check on said order, and being told by a couple of people that it should come in TODAY--i was told over the phone that the meds i need are on BACKORDER and that they have no idea when they will come in. NICE! stupid bastards. now i have to call my doctor to see about switching med types or get a prescription for a generic brand. so i tried to call my doctor, which is a barrell of laughs in itself because i cant even reach my doctor, i have to call the automated system to leave a friggin' message for her, then she gets back to me! so i tried calling her on my break and i get through most of the automated message and im at the on-hold part when my call is dropped. i got so annoyed i just decided to come back into work and try again later.

SHIT!!!!!!! so frustrating!

what's also not helping is that terry gross (npr--fresh air host) is doing a two part country music special which is annoying because i wanted to hear something GOOD!

*taking a deep breath*

i am also hungry because i haven't eaten lunch yet--which is no one's fault but my own, but i'm still going to complain about it! my lunch break was spent at kaiser (accompanying nate to his follow up MRI dr's appt--all good news BTW), so now i have no lunch time to go and eat. but i suppose i could just head next door to wendys for a salad.

ok. i think i've written myself down from the ledge and have reached a calmer mood. maybe this country music is actually soothing me... its kinda old school country to it ain't too bad (whoever the artist on air is--is now doing a buddy holly cover).
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moving on... i subscribed to a couple new media things that im excited about! one is a local magazine called colorlines that my co-worker shared with me. it comes out about 6 times a month. the second is a progressive dvd-of-the-month kinda club put out by ironweed film. i look forward to those things coming! i am also looking forward to the spike lee documentary: when the levees broke, which is saved on my replay just waiting to be watched. i will provide commentary on that after i watch it.

last night i saw the illusionist with nate and jocelyn. the movie was pretty boring and too predictable. i love ed norton & paul giamatti but if the movie is boring--its just boring. what had me curious during the movie was actually the origin of the word "fuck"... the movie takes place during the turn of the century (1900s), & one of the characters asked "were they fucking" and it made me think... did they use the word "fucking" back then? and when exactly did the origin and this meaning come about? (something to research)...

i am looking forward to checking out half nelson (hopefully this weekend) since its a film i have been hearing about for a few months now--and has a lot of clout (kevin smith!) backing it as one of the best films of the year... decade... century .... ever MADE. haha.

i recently joined the music club, your music, which allows you to buy any cds in their catalog for only 6 bucks... you have to sign up for their one-a-month subscription (also 6 bucks), which then allows you to buy any cd at any time for 6 bucks. they have a decent collection of old & new and some semi-underground.

time to get my nutrients on...

monkey business...

2006-08-31T12:46:00.000-07:00

i want one!

this dress is pretty awesome.

progressive record store politics...

2006-08-31T11:39:00.000-07:00

found this interesting article in the east bay express on the downfall of tower records, and how amoeba is making progress & using good business tactics to work with the download revolution era music fans (allowing people to purchase new cds and return them for 75% store credit within one week--just enough time to open them and rip them and then return them)...

woo. i can listen to KQED online at work. 'bout time they unblocked the website... why is it bad to be following the news? silly silly work...

sunset lights the way over my bay...

2006-08-30T15:26:00.000-07:00

mood: stir-crazy.
music: 2004 kscu fall fundraiser (good stuff!), hard to believe i've been gone for more than a year already...

summer is over. wah! im feeling the itch to make myself busy again because it feels like i should be going back to school... only for the first time i don't have to! which is amazing, but makes me feel lazy in a way. so i am going to take another pilates class & a kickboxing class at san jose city college.

i just got back from disneyland (i actually returned last wednesday). it was a good time... went on all the rides i wanted (except the matterhorn because i was so exhausted i thought my legs were going to fall off!). but i did get to see johnny depp make several appearances in the yet-again-remodeled pirates of the carribean. im not to approve of messing with the classics, but it was pretty comical. speaking of pirates... pirates stuff is EVERYWHERE!! its beyond trendy...

i am missing going to shows as well! i can't even remember the last actual "show" show i went to... since i dont consider big music festivals (bfd) as being a show. i miss going up to san francisco. i need to stop being lazy! here are some shows i wouldnt mind going to:

9/9: damone @ slims (but i will be outta town!)
9/20: lawrence arms @ bottom of the hill.
9/23: phoenix @ slims.
9/30: gossip @ bottom of the hill (also playing 10/1)
10/2: we are scientists & art brut @ the fillmore.
10/13: clap your hands say yeah + architecture in helsinki @ the warfield.
10/14: subtle @ bottom of the hill.
10/16: ladytron @ the fillmore.
10/17: the hold steady @ gamh.
10/28: alias & tarsier @ bottom of the hill.
11/21: mates of state @ gamh (or 11/22).

there is one show i am going to (meaning i am being a nice girlfriend), and that is guns'n'roses on sept. 20. haha. i have no idea what to expect. i also am going to the download festival (for free! + VIP! yay!). heart is also playing sept. 6 @ the mt. winery... which i cant afford but would totally go to! i adore heart. haha.

ok. my computer is being completely freakish and keeps turning off and on giving me a heart attack each time. time to reboot.

xoxoxox.

the computer-nerd artists invade san jose.

2006-08-07T10:05:00.000-07:00

the image that has sold me on the zero one art festival taking over san jose this week:

my brain is staging a protest for more caffeine.

2006-08-04T16:08:00.000-07:00

i can really feel the friday-ness of today. and not in that happy kinda way where the air is light, but it's more of the... my head and my body ache and i want to go home and relax but really i have one million point five things to do.

although, i often find myself feeling MORE tired when i go home and watch tv or read instead of moving about and doing stuff for myself, my boyfriend or our home (apartment). i think i will indulge in a little of both and run to target to pick up some things (storage boxes + bathing suit + bras) and then go home and watch battlestar galactica and unpack/get rid/organize the house.

i don't really have a reason for writing a blog other than to post the above picture with a link to the blog post. check it out. check out music for america in general. register to vote. then actually go & vote. ummmmmmmmmm my brain hurts. time to go. ta-ta. (hey i just noticed i posted a blog five days in a row! i deserve a prize).

burn baby burn... burned out!

2006-08-03T09:56:00.000-07:00

im totally burned out on work. this was one of those wavering days... should i go to work? or should i stay home? or should i take a half day? maybe i can leave early? but i sucked it up and went to work. big mistake.

i dont know how i feel about the news of heath ledger playing the joker in "the dark knight"--the next batman sequel. isn't he too pretty? i'd rather have seen someone like buscemi (who was in consideration at one point--i think--), who cares if he's not a big name draw. ledger's joker is supposed to be very creepy and very extreme....... hmmmm. we'll see. i liked batman begins a lot, so i have hope for the next one.

ok. im tired of this blog.

the bride pees.

2006-08-02T15:51:00.000-07:00

the bride pees.
Originally uploaded by miss_ctc.

also, i find it pretty hilarious that this picture has been viewed 27 times while the rest have been viewed around 5-10 times.

PERVERTS!

the wednesday afternoon slump.

2006-08-02T15:24:00.000-07:00

mood: distracted.
music: more somaFM (it's the only thing i can get work online @ work!)

i'm day dreaming about 7-11's coffee happy hour (50 cents!) which begins in forty minutes at 4:00. i think i might have to leave the desk and stroll on down the street. yeah. that sounds about right.

NICOLE UPDATES:
i applied for the music liaison position at music for america. they loved me & thought i was perfect but not perfect exactly because i have a full-time job! they need the intern to be able to work from the san francisco office, and they are only open from like 10-6 p.m. monday through friday! @#$!(@(!!! DAMNERS!! but they are an outreach organization! doesn't that mean flexible hours? oh well. my dreams are crushed. oh well. paying the rent is kinda rad too. :) plus, i can still do outreach for them down here in the south bay.

i just finished reading the nanny diaries, which was a mildly entertaining fluff book, that was exaggerated in a absurd-comedic sense... but makes you frustrated because it pushes you towards your breaking point. i think i might have trouble sitting through this when it makes it's screen adaptation... i might want to punch the screen. it will probably be a similar experience to watching 'the devil wears prada'.

i went swimming--as in doing laps-- this morning at the campbell community center. i had to pay five bucks. i felt uncomfortable because i didnt have a one piece swimsuit, or goggles, or a swimming cap like everyone else. i showed up in my little make-shift swimsuit, which was my bottom piece (a black bottom) and a sports bra with a black tank top over it... all items courtesy of target. i felt W.E.I.R.D. once i got in the pool i felt more at ease, but i had to ask this guy if he would "split the lane" with me (i learned something new today!). he asked where my goggles were and i said i didnt have any. AWKWARD! then i did laps for about thirty minutes and felt like jello trying to pull myself out of the pool. must have been a pretty good workout. i think i will continue at least once maybe twice a week. if anyone cares to join me that would be FANTASTIC. maybe we can SPLIT A LANE. ahaahahhhaaa. and i think i might be going back to target to try and find a one-piece suit.

OK. that's all for now. almost time for caffiene injection.

an uncomfortable feeling.

2006-08-01T13:56:00.000-07:00

and that feeling is bloated! feeling bloated is one of the most uncomfortable feelings ever! even if you haven't even eaten anything, you still feel full and fat and gross. its like whatever food or liquids you have consumed are in limbo, and don't want to pass through one way or another.

i feel like this squirrel:

and there's nothing you can really do to help it! luckily it's cold enough at work that i can put on a sweater and hide my bloatedness. i suppose drinking some black coffee could always help. aha. okay. i'm starting to sound like rich.

work is going well, which means super busy, which means bringing work stuff home with me to do. oh well.

im going to disneyland in a couple of weeks, which i'm really looking forward to. haven't had any vacations this summer yet, so anything counts! plus we're actually staying in a hotel and doing the whole park hopper thing--which definitely qualifies for an official vacation. still wouldn't mind doing a road trip or something, or maybe saving up some money to go to the east coast in the fall (boston? new england?).

ok. back to being bloated...

music: SomaFM- secret agent & indie pop rocks! (the connection keeps getting lost!)
mood: one guess...

going indie-major.

2006-07-31T09:41:00.000-07:00

weird. the ponys have signed to matador. hmmm. i guess that's kinda cool. cool for in the red--hoping it means a little more press and awareness for them. btw--they are one of the raddest rock'n'roll labels around. i wish the ponys much success on matador.

here's the news from the matador newsletter:

After months of wining, dining, and more than a little dying, we're very
happy to announce that the amazing Chicago quartet THE PONYS have been signed to a worldwide, multi-album pact with Matador Records.Toiling since the year 2000, the band's two album highly acclaimed albums for the terrific In The Red label, 2004's Jim Diamond-helmed 'Laced With Romance' and 2005's Steve Albini-assisted 'Celebration Castle' have been stereo fixtures for smart, savvy rock fans across the globe.Like many of our other favorites, new and otherwise, the Ponys' uncanny meditation on the great guitar bands of New York, Boston, Los Angeles and Manchester circa 1976-1983 ultimately come through with a voice all their own. Though we think they've already got a couple of modern classics under
their belt, the new material we've heard from 2006's gigging hints at their most
ambitious work to date, and one they'll begin work on very soon....with
subsequent worldwide release on Matador in 2007.

bay area art scenesterdom.

2006-07-20T10:05:00.000-07:00

found a cool local blog/website/thing going on. it's called fecalface.com. check it out (jocelyn i had you in mind--with your pretentious little art things you go to. =)

mood: caffienated & content.
music: buck 65- this right here is buck 65

coffee + star wars = caffienated nerd.

2006-07-13T07:44:00.000-07:00

coffee spot: roasted coffee bean. favorite item: mocha cooler.

not motivated.

2006-07-12T14:54:00.000-07:00

mood: unfocused
music: none at the moment.

not motivated to work that is. havent had a lunch break. have spent nearly 7 hours of my day inputing information onto the computer for our state progress report. F-U-N. not.

i'm motivated to do many other things though. they are: play tennis. read my newsweek. read the kite runner. upload the photos to flickr (sis' wedding, birthday, joe's wedding, etc.). motivated to watch the premiere of project runway 3 & munch on bread, cheese and fig (joce you're gonna miss out!). i'm motivated to write blogs. i'm motivated to plan fun events with the youth (bowling & movie nights). i'm motivated to work on the summer training program in august.

i'm so bored right now. i'm more bored than i can ever remember. i'm also hungry and i'm going to try and hold out until dinner time because tyler is taking me out for dinner. i'm thinking chili's. i have a craving for their buffalo chicken salad. that stuffs good. plus then i'll have enough room for the project runway muchies.

i finally listened to some new music today. new neko case. GOOD. new snow patrol. also good. new alias album. LOVELY.

now i want to go home and watch more of battlestar galactica. NERD. i know.

my heart is beating really fast. something weird is going on with it. i have a heart murmur.

a very merry unbirthday to me... to me...

2006-07-11T08:09:00.000-07:00

mood: awake.
music: sofmaFM- indie pop rocks! station. (it's the only online radio station i can hear!)

so technically its my unbirthday, since it's not actually my birthday anymore. though it was on saturday... so going by nicolekkah standards its still on. i had a nice day--spent it with family which was nice. i got some nice, useful gifts, which was good. thanks everyone. you are all awesome.

a reminder to myself: visit 15-minute hipster & 15 minutes to live blogs for new music.

best thing about birthdays (besides the attention), the free lunches!:

(haha. funny ("bad") camera phone pictures). thanks to my co-workers for the free japanese food. yum-yum.)

that's all for now. gotta go and buy some snacks for our staff meeting.

who's that girl standing next to the mayor?

2006-06-27T09:53:00.000-07:00

mood: happy.
drink: coffee, black.
music: somaFM: indiepop rocks! station

its only 10 a.m. and i've already been up for four hours. up and about. doing yoga. whats wrong with me.

things im hoping to accomplish today:
1) attend city council meeting (work related-there to support CBO in promoting smokefree movie lines--did you see the surgeon general's report today?)
2) eat japanese food for lunch.
3) play tennis.
4) upload photos to flickr.
5) get permission to take a couple hours off to go to tomorrow's special san jose city council meeting. gonna be juicy.

6) go to "kscu"//more than a feelin' softball game. hopefully lulu will be there so we can hang out.

7) cook that thai curry i've been wanting to cook for some time now.

8) watch the brazil vs. ghana game i replayed (though i doubt i will manage to go the whole day w/o hearing the score--but we'll see). i already knew who was ahead half way through.

9) mail my broken cell phone back to verizon.

10) set up dinner/movie with teesh & joce for tomorrow. girls night out.

have you been following your minds instructions?

2006-06-20T09:24:00.000-07:00

mood: uncomfortable.
music: belle & sebastian- the life pursuit.

heartburn sucks. i have been getting it nonstop lately. and i havent been eating really greasy/fatty foods. i dont understand. its completely distracting me... so much that i need to focus on writing this blog. i need some rolaids.

my yoga class was cancelled this morning which pissed me off. it wouldn't have been so bad if it didnt start at 6:30 in the morning. so i went to lou's living donut museum in downtown san jose instead. the place is closing at the end of the month so i HAD to go. the little donut holes are attached to the side. which is so cute.

my birthday is sneaking up on me. gonna be a quarter of a century. yup. not planning anything major--actually im going to go down to santa maria to share my birthday with my nephew--who will be celebrating his first birthday! i can't miss that! he's already started to walk too--which is amazing and scary (well scary for the parents--amusing for me).

but getting back to my birthday, ive been making a mental note of things i want for my birthday (even if its a gift to myself =) so im gonna post it here so i dont forgot (and in case anyone needs an idea) :D

black video ipod (gonna probably be my gift to myself)
a wok.
spice rack.
recipe book (cute empty one so i can put my recipes in it)
yoga mat.
soft beach volleyball.
camera cinemas discount card.
recipe books (healthy, vegetarian recipes)
dvds are always welcomed.
gift certificates as well (forever 21, movies, borders, whatever).

okay. i always take the fact that ive moved onto another cd [libertines-up the bracket (damn that pete doherty)] as a sign to end a blog.

he who is the merchandise whore...

2006-06-02T15:43:00.000-07:00

mood: more alert, less full.
music: none. (trying to watch clerks 2 cannes reaction--it was an 8-minute standing ovation.)

actually did get some work done for awhile, but now im back to not working. with only 20 minutes left, i guess that's not so bad.

thought id take the rest of my time to check out the kevin smith blog and noticed he is whoring some new clerks 2 merch. the man has created beer cozies! the most white trash thing on earth. i know, because i grew up around beer cozies which were usually minnesota vikings cozies filled with coors. don't get me wrong, my uncles rule, but yeah.

i just read the merc's review of "the break up" and they SLAMMED it. oh well. i still have to experience it for myself.

i also just read on the yahoo front page that matthew macconaughey and penelope cruz have split up. i didnt even know they were going out. who the hell cares. i have way more important stuff to focus my attention on--like the damned clerks 2 response at cannes!!!

dunno if im gonna be able to make comic-con this year. looks like we might be taking some of our youth whitewater rafting. im scared. i have to sign a waiver that says i could die. i keep imaging being thrown from the raft and smacking my head on a giant rock.

speaking of my head--off the top of my head, the top 2 women i would do if i were gay are: scarlett johanssen and rosario dawson.

on that note. time to head home. peace out.

k-fed's kids will work at taco bell...

2006-06-02T13:50:00.000-07:00

mood: food coma.
music: mp3s from various blogs.

i am so full right now i wouldnt be surprised if i pass out in my cubicle. indian buffet for lunch is coma-inducing food for sure. too much nan. too much chicken curry and tikka masala. too much everything. if you want cheap & decent indian buffet though, hit up tandoor next to the 7-11 by the santa clara university campus. the place could really use some more business. plus they always have the finest of television shows on... from i love lucy to the cosby show to roseanne to the andy griffith show.

i am totally in an afternoon friday work mode, where you want to do as little as possible and pretend-work for the rest of the day. i... just... can't... motivate... myself.

im trying to check out some mp3's from the stereogum blog and every stupid link is blocked. dang!

ive recently gotten into the show rescue me, and until last night had been really enjoying it (despite the amount of testosterone the show exudes), but in the episode of season 2 i watched last night (the episode after the son is killed) i just couldnt take anymore! its getting more depressing than six feet under! maybe i'll do better when im caught up to the current season and can watch them one episode at a time. the cast is really great, and in general its pretty darkly funny, but sometimes things HAVE to go right.

darn. the clip of brittany murphy singing won't load! that was going to be the highlight of my day.

date night for me tonight! =) dinner and a movie in downtown LG. is the break up really a date movie? i suppose if they end up staying together then maybe. i adore vince vaughn though. jennifer anniston plays the same role in every movie though, she will always be rachel green. sorry chica.

3-day weekend sponsored by george foreman...

2006-05-30T10:46:00.000-07:00

mood: tweaking (coffee!!$@#!)

me & nate got a george foreman grill this weekend and it rules. on sunday we cooked up some turkey burgers then last night a turkey "pork loin" and it was mmm mmm good. the rice i made was another story... =D

i saw mission impossible 3 yesterday. it was enjoyable... since i had never seen the other two, i had no comparison to make. i do like philip seymor hoffman as the bad guy and i liked j j abrams when i saw him at wondercon this year. i have to say fuck you to AMC saratoga for not having matinee shows. LAME.

tonight we're going to see the da vinci code with my dad. FINALLY. i dont care what all the haters are saying... i don't care that the dialogue is cheesy and that things seem to fit nicely as the plot unravels... that's what mystery-adventure stories are like! besides, what do you expect when it's directed by opie?

next up: x-men... which i know is definitely not gonna beat x-2, but i'm sure it will still be enjoyable.

and now random pictures just because they're too cute (and in honor of puppy time--the greatest mall store EVER!)

(boston terrier = nates fave, puggle = my fave!)

what not to say to a female...

2006-05-24T11:48:00.000-07:00

mood: annoyed.

a co-worker of mine that i generally refer to as the ewok just told me it looks like i've gained a little weight... he noticed on my face. thanks. thanks a lot.

older men sometimes lack tact. he then tried to make it seem more like a compliment when he said something along the lines of at least it just makes me a have a chubbier face, unlike with him where its more around his belly (a little hard to make out because of his thick vietnamese accent).

dang. thats mean.

well... time for me to take my chubby ass and go to a training.

screw you!

2006-05-19T18:23:00.000-07:00

ya'll don't wanna comment on my photos, well then fine!!!! no more photo/posts.

i'm off to san diego and la this weekend! woowhoo should arrive around 3 in the morning. gonna take a field trip to petco park. yay!

that's all for now.

walkin/rollin' to his own beat....

2006-05-18T21:05:00.000-07:00

more wedding photos... this time of the ring bearer...

my nephew is the cutest....

don't mind me... im just learnin' to walk. its way less embarassing then the coxe family dance... =D

penis cupcakes are awesome.

2006-05-17T09:21:00.000-07:00

bachelorette parties are a great excuse to overuse penis' in your decorations....

yummy.

new discoveries...

2006-05-16T18:03:00.000-07:00

my sister called me last night to excitedly tell me that avi was on the front page of the sacramento bee. RAD. here's the link. i need to call this guy at some point (when he's back from tour).

also, i found a livejournal of jocelyn's! i just spent about 20 minutes or so reading some of the old entries and reminicing about some of the times we've shared together. i especially enjoyed the popscene reference to me being fun because of my drunkeness. its true. popscene aint fun unless you're drunk.

well its after 6 and im officially off work. i spent two hours in a pandemic flu training today. my favorite moment of the training: when someone asked "should we stop feeding birds, then?"

yesterday i upgraded my flickr to a pro-account which means you can be expecting some updates on there. especially of the recent wedding and bachelorette party. though... i might have to edit some of the incriminating ones of berenice, cuz i dont wanna pussy-block.

on that note, time to leave. kscu ("more than a feelin'") softball game happening in half an hour.

peace bitches.

congratulations rachel & ben

2006-05-16T07:25:00.000-07:00

me and the bride... my little sister.

berenice copies scarlett...

2006-05-11T07:22:00.000-07:00

berenice is gonna do my hair like this for the wedding..........

pretty.

have a craving...?

2006-05-09T15:16:00.000-07:00

mood: satisfied (thanks to this vending machine snickers bar)

two interesting random news tidbits of the day: colbert CENSORed & baghdad set HBO COMEDY.

i've decided that after checking out some of my friends pages on flickr that i need to stop being lazy with the photos, and ive been inspired to post a photo a day on this blog... (when 'net/digi.cam. accessible). plus i am planning to update the flickr site more often (even though i have a free account which means limited uploading).

of course, here and now would be the appropriate time to post one, but my camera is at home, and i am not. so i promise i will do that later.

rediscovery: music for america... rediscovery in that i would like get involved with them again, more than i am now.

well almost time to take my truck in for it's oil change.... yippee for coupons from precision auto tune.

.....bullet the blue sky......

2006-04-28T14:00:00.000-07:00

mood: sunshiney!
music: stars- heart

its gorgeous outside! i'm lovin' this weather! so as you can tell i'm in better spirits than i was this morning... and no more tummy ache.

i went to valley fair during lunch to exchange my earrings, and eat some delicious rubios tacos (chicken not fish), and literally fished (aha!) for coins in my wallet to buy a mrs. fields cookie for dessert. awww cookies you are my weakness! i have tried for years to convince the youth i work with to get a job at mrs. fields (my first job), so that i could have a cookie-connection, but alas, no such luck.

so anyway... i stop on my way out at the mrs. fields cookie cart in the food court and spot a sign for A NEW COOKIE. and get this... its a "chocolate lovers cookie"! CHOCOLATE LOVERS! what does this mean? it means milk chocolate, dark chocolate and white chocolate chips all in one cookie!!! AND let me tell you, i am chewing a bite right now and it tastes like little pieces of heaven. mmmmm. even worth the $1.59 i paid for it (they raised the price of cookies 30 cents since i last worked there--which was when i was a junior in high school).

other things that made me smile:

a license plate in the parking lot that said: "will work for bandwidth". oh those silicon valley nerds.
terry gross interviewing robert smigel on fresh air. (added bonus: getting to hear terry say "s & m", and hearing the amiguously gay duo theme song)
seeing the sign for the new chocolate lovers cookie. =D and eating it.
the $75. dollar nightgown at the shi-shi 2nd floor at nordstroms, which the gap has for about $20. and is just as cute and comfy. (maybe i will go back and get it next week)
thinking about getting off of work at 4 p.m. woot. woot.

i also came to the realization that i kinda want a video ipod. must... refrain... spending... well i couldnt buy one anytime in the month of may... but my birthday is coming up in july. maybe i will give myself one in honor of being 25. i was thinking just a 30 GB version, i dont need something fancy like the 60 GB.

i...feel...like...barfing...

2006-04-28T09:35:00.000-07:00

im not sure why but i feel sick right now. i think sometimes tea makes me feel like barfing. i also really feel like i need a vacation day and today feels like that day.

random thoughts & observations:
the skarks won last night. thats good.

i played tennis last night. that was fun.

i saw clooney on the today show today (with his dad) talking about darfur.

i am feeling lethargic about work today.

i feel like eating the pink (strawberry/raspberry?) mochi from the manju shop in sj japantown. mmmm.

my stomach aches. i want my mommy.

i havent been to a concert/show in a long time (her space holiday?)

i need to go to the bank.

i need to go to nordstrom to exchange a pair of earrings.

i need to go grocery shopping but i have little money despite getting paid today.

damn the monthly rent check. damn gas prices. damn damn damn.

i am sore from running and playing tennis. my body aches and i feel old.

i am in a complaining mood today. at least, until i get to go home from work.

there is a rally raising awareness about darfur on sunday in san francisco. i wouldnt mind going.

there is also a cherry blossom festival part deux in j-town on sunday. i will probably go to that. don't judge me.

GI Joes stage IRAQ war protest...

2006-04-21T09:46:00.000-07:00

i abosolutely could not resist blogging about this after i read it on sfist... army men have seized control over the bay area..... oh nooooooooooooooo. ahahhaha. this is the most adorable war protest i have seen yet. for more info ----> visit me!

adult expressions...

2006-04-21T09:29:00.000-07:00

just a quick and short post... i wanted to share this picture of dylan (and my sister), because dylan's facial expression is so freakin' cute i can hardly contain myself. makes me want to drive to santa maria and squeeze him. i miss my nephew (and rach and ben).

back to the daily grind......

i don't have time to deal with your personality disorder...

2006-04-14T09:45:00.000-07:00

one of THE best 24 lines directed at chloe of all time!

im eating poptarts for breakfast. bad i know... but its the only thing in our vending machine here at work that will actually fill me up. my friend eric used to say that poptarts expand in your stomach.

well... i got paid today, so now i can go to the grocery store and stock up on fruits and healthier foods. i was thinking about trying out a new recipe too... not sure what yet but ive been liking the ones im getting online. the korean chicken the other night was really good. PLUS i also had my federal tax return deposited in my account today.... which RULES!!! it means i can restock my savings that i had to dip into. WOOOO! finances are so fucking thrilling to read about on blogs....

any way, i was so excited about the no-rain yesterday that i walked to the park and walked two miles around the track. i miss being outside. there were a ton of people out there playing soccer, basketball, running, walking their dogs... everyone is fucking tired of the rain.

local news was CARAZEE yesterday. there was a "shifty looking package" scare at the federal building in downtown san jose .... then a wells fargo bank in my old neck of the woods was robbed and a high speed chase followed....... thats just fucking nuts! nutty stuff going on in the 4-0-8. AND i just read that senor Bush is coming to san jose next friday. whooopity-do. funny how all this hype on the immigration issue is coming up now.... just in time to take people's mind off the war, the CIA leak scandal and the whole brink of something with Iran. very very very very NOT surprising. the media blows too. just thought id put out that blanket statement. but... the new york times did a good story on the CIA leak... and Bush/Cheney involvement... and don't even get me started on the whole Rumsfeld thing... i mean... what the hell do six retired generals know anyway? if it werent for blogging and online news sources... i think i would go nuts from being fed complete bullshit from the mainstream media.

not sure where that semi-political rant came from...

in other news, i think im going to buy a tennis racket this weekend so that i can get some more exercise. ive always liked to play tennis for fun, and even if i'm by myself i can just play against a wall. =) id also like to get a basketball (or a pump) that i can pump up nate's flat basketball.

nothing else to report. um... go sharks!

love,
nicole

it's that four o-clock headache time...

2006-04-10T16:38:00.000-07:00

every day around 4 p.m.

me: my head hurts.
me: i think i will make some tea.
me: i wonder if the tea makes it worse?
me: or maybe the birth control pills are the cause.

*blah*

i read in women's health that if you have a headache/migraine that tea will make it worse. darn.

i printed out a new recipe to make tonight. it's "korean roast chicken thighs". hopefully it will turn out good. last night i made soy-sauce chicken, rice and corn. i thought it was pretty yummy. i need to think of another veggie that will go well with my korean chicken... hmmm i dont know.
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to do list.......

send out email for bachelorette party...
vacuum
read more grant proposals
compile old clothes to donate
laundry

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okay. i think its time for me to go now. i just realized that this blog posting made me sound like a housewife. now i need to go and drink a beer...

i got my mind made up.

2006-04-10T10:35:00.000-07:00

music: tom petty box set- disc 6
mood: calm.

i feel very relaxed right now. i guess i should considering i started work at 10. i had a hard time pushing myself to get out of bed this morning, it just felt too good to get up. having myself a nice little breakfast: lemon yogurt, banana and buddha blend tea. mmmm. plus the office is pretty quiet which is nice.

not much of weekend report for me... went to the giants game on friday. they lost. there was a two hour rain delay... then when the giants blew the game in the 7th inning with the most horrible pitching inning i have ever seen, the rain started coming down again and joe got crazy and delirious. it was pretty entertaining. i still love baseball, even though im not quite the nerdy fan i once was... with my little baseball card collection and a special card holder for two of my favorite giants, matt williams and will clark. i just loose interest in sports when there are strikes. i did that with baseball. then with basketball. and now with hockey. did the sharks clinch that 8th spot?

i skipped APE to save funds. the whole point of going up there is to buy comics... and if i went up there i would have to spend money on gas, admission and then comics. if i had done that i wouldnt really have been able to buy new bras, which were more of a necessity.

saturday night i went to the movies solo, which i love. its my all-time favorite way of relieving stress. so i went over to the pruneyard, spent some time reading magazines at barnes and noble (the kiefer article in rolling stone kind of made me sad...), then stopped to get a coffee from coffee society, then it was off to camera 7 for chick-flick movie "friends with money". i enjoy seeing the ultra-girly movies by myself or with female friends, because then i dont have to worry about the boyfriend being annoyed and making annoyed sounds and eye-rolls during the movie, and then later using it as leverage for something. the movie was okay. i would give it 3 stars out of 5. the acting was good... but the writing could have been a teensy-weensy bit better. the story tried to cover a little bit too much and actually could have been a little longer to tie up things a little better (it was a little less then an hour and half--rare nowadays).

besides... i would have had to see the film anyways, because i made a promise to myself to see as many films as possible (if not all) that have female directors. there arent many female directors, especially successful ones, so i took it upon myself to support as many of them as possible (even if they look horrible).

thats all ive got for now. pretty mellow these days, and enjoying it.

unmotivated.... sleepy.... friday......

2006-04-07T10:43:00.000-07:00

i want to curl up in bed and take a nap and not wake up until its time to go to the giants game.

today is definitely one of those "fake happy work days"... you know those days where you wish you could do work but not have to interact with people. but since i dont work solo, i have to be fake friendly. know those days?

what to look forward to: giants vs. braves. i highly enjoy live baseball games. i hope the rain stays away. though a day game tomorrow due to rain delay would be welcomed if the sun were to pay us a visit.

i think this weather + too much stress + no exercise is making me depressed.

ive had bad dreams three nights in a row. i think due to the above.

sorry for being eyeore today. oh bother. ;)

i had peach yogurt for breakfast.

2006-04-03T10:47:00.000-07:00

mood: blah.
music: nothing. office sounds.

i have a stomach ache, hence the not clever at all subject line. i dont want to be at work. luckily i worked on friday, a county holiday, so i have approval to leave early today. which means i only have to work for about an hour and forty minutes longer. still. stomach aches are no fun at work. my body is all f-ed up right now and im looking forward to going to the doctors this week--well not looking forward to going/having uncomfortable things done to me--but to figuring out whats wrong and having it fixed.

i also agree w/ olga on the whole daylight savings time switch that it should happen in the middle of the day during the week, preferably monday around 4 p.m. instead of the middle of the night on a weekend! bastards!

weekend recap (in backwards order):

sunday.........
yesterday, sunday... i saw "thank you for smoking" which i really liked. a couple of my youth came to see the film...and one of them ran head on into the wall because he thought there was an aisle there. it was hilarious. he ended up staying a couple of rows away from us because he was too embarassed to move. but back to the film... the writing is really sharp and the actor who played the main role was perfect. i really recommend this film, especially for folks who keep up w/ whats going on in the world, and listen to npr or read political blogs or anyone who has a cruel sense of humor. haha. any way. check out the film.

before that me and nate went to eat at this korean buffet place that's on homestead/san tomas area. it was pretty good, especially for $6.50. their kimchee was good, and their bbq pork was nicely flavored and not too fatty. i'd go back. wouldnt go if i was in the mood for soup though. after that we walked to where his softball practice was and pretended i knew how to play until the other players began to show up and then i left to go to camera 7. (actually i did play for 1.5 years... third base, but that was eons ago.)

later in the evening i watched the sopranos. it was a good episode. glad to see tony back, but i still think something is a little off with him. i think he hit is peak tony moment when he told the insurance woman to "get the fuck outta my room you cunt." yes. it was that kinda episode. it was also kinda nice to have a paulie episode. then i read more of a million little pieces, which im about 3/4's done with.

saturday............
so i almost drove up to san francisco on saturday for APE. at the last minute i changed my mind and me and nate went to see ice age 2. we were the only people there without kids. the movie was really cute, funny and enjoyable. any way... it wasnt until later that night that jocelyn pointed out to me that APE is NEXT weekend. i knew this too. i had the flyer. i checked the website. i dont know why i thought it was this weekend. good thing i didnt drive up there. next weekend it is.

i went to lulu's bands show at johnny v's on saturday. it was cool to see lulu playing in a band. i look forward to seeing her sing w/ oceans of fire. johnny v's is a very tiny bar to see bands. even smaller than the caravan. its been awhile since ive gone out in downtown san jose, i forgot how much fun walking down santa clara is by yourself.

friday.........
friday i spent the day working. went to mt. pleasant in the morning to do outreach at their multi-cultural festival. this was my favorite event when i went to school there, and it was still pretty cool (though not as cool as when i went there). there was this really weird pro-military performance that was performed by the christian club... the whole time i thought it was ROTC, but nope. weird. and even weirder is that it followed a really awesome performance from the black student union that was all about freedom. oh well.

then later in the evening we took some of the youth up to san francisco for the discarded to divine fashion exhibit at the deyoung museum in golden gate park. first we went shopping/ate in the haight. i had some much needed coffee and a delicious nutella crepe at the squat and gobble cafe. their crepe was fucking delicious, they know not to scrimp on the nutella. any way... the exhibit was pretty cool. hopefully it will inspire the youth w/ their designs for our health fashion show. me, lorna and joce are gonna go to the fashion show/silent auction this week. they had only one dress that was actually my size... almost all of them were size 0-4. tiny!

i can see clearly now.. the resolution is better...

2006-03-28T15:34:00.000-08:00

mood: upbeat, but w/ headache.
music: nada.

a couple of my friendly and awesome co-workers snagged me a new computer monitor and a new computer out of the wreckage of forgotten electronics here at work. IS is going to come tomorrow to set me up on my new computer, and as i type im looking at a FLAT screen with much better resolution and less headache inducing out-of-date-ness. im so techie.

any way. today has been a pretty good day. i had an oral examination for a promotional position today. i have to place in the top 7 to move on to the next interview. either way it was good experience. we shall see what happens.

i am happy about what happened in sunday's sopranos, and im so looking forward to being able to watch next week without the constant nervous feeling that ive had the last two weeks. tony will be back to being tony fucking soprano. thank god. props to steve buscemi for making an appearance in the last episode. he rules. i briefly heard on fresh air that he's directing a new movie. i'll have to look it up. also... be on the lookout for bob sagets new project, "farse of the penguins" a tale of penguin love (and graphic sex scenes- so i hear). that saget... such a dirty dirty man.

speaking of the bob, for those of you with hbo, check out the reruns of entourage on every sunday at 8... starting at season 1. that show rules. or if you are without hbo, rent the dvds.

im looking forward to going home and finishing off the remaining saved episodes of 24... i think i have about four hours left (including last nights... ) so it shouldnt be too difficult a task. this season has been pretty good... glad to see they arent scared of taking chances with their characters.

thats all for now...

birthday wishes are in order.

2006-03-24T16:09:00.000-08:00

mood: food sleepy.

happy birthday to tyler. he's turning--old. i won't out him on how old, but old enough. lets just say that over lunch today we discussed colonoscopys. fun. men are babies.

im still fat and full from korean lunch today, courtesy of omogari. i took tyler out to lunch for his birthday (and one of my youth advocates--who randomly showed up along side my truck at mt. pleasant today). im going to go home and exercise on my bike and do a billion crunches and lift my little eight pound weights before heading off to the nuthouse tonight for more stomach expanding beverages.

first i will go home and unapologetically watch last nights episode of the OC. hey! when they ever decide to release 90210 on dvd, i will consider giving up the OC, but for now, its in my regular rotation of shows.

speaking of shows... the new pornographers//belle and sebastian show happened on tuesday. at the risk of coming off sounding like a pretentious music snob (which i am, but hopefully minus the pretentiousness), the show was not worth the money.

the venue is HORRIBLE. the sound is also HORRIBLE. location & parking i give a thumbs up to, and while i look forward to going to APE at this same venue, i will never (probably never) see a show there again. don't get me wrong, it wasnt the worst show ever, im just drawing a comparison to all the number of times ive seen these bands--belle and sebastian (this my fourth time) and new pornographers (fifth time), and i must say this was my least favorite time seeing B&S and my second least favorite time seeing new p's (the only other time we only got their in time to see about 2 songs).

not to say that the new pornographers werent awesome, but they were neko less, and i had very little room to dance, and the venue was too big for them. belle and sebastian, my problem was more with the venue than them. me and jocelyn left reese and jeff, and moved from our front of the stage spot after new pornographers (to get air, visit teshia & rick), and after that we were unable to find a spot where we could actually see the band. we either had tons of heads in our way, or giant posts. what a shitty venue. why have shows here? i cant imagine how horrible the strokes show is going to be there. oh well. you live and learn. cant say i had a bad evening, just wasnt worth forty bucks.

then when i went to buy a beer, they had a bunch of rows with beers filled in clear plastic cups. i asked what types they were and she said they were mystery beers. look lady, i aint payin' six bucks for a freakin' mystery beer (later she confessed they were pale ale and budweiser). i had told her, give me your darkest... which was pale ale. lame.

ok. time to leave work. spending some time in santa cruz this weekend, which will include some nicole time, which is nice.

spreading the world water day gospel

2006-03-22T10:31:00.000-08:00

Today is world water day--a day used to spread word on the fact that more than 1 billion people world wide – 20% of the planet’s entire human population – lack access to clean, safe drinking water. According to the United Nations, this world water crisis leads to the death of more than 4,500 children every day and is a leading cause of poverty, disease, and social instability world wide.

Soooo... I'm doing my part and letting the five of you know who reads this about today... and about what's going on in developing nations. Spread the word.

Here's some tidbits from the World Water Day Website:

Despite the apparent abundance of clean water in the US and most of the developed world, more than 20% of the Earth’s population lacks clean, safe drinking water.

This world water crisis isn’t confined to one particular region of the planet, though the crisis is most severe in developing nations and particularly acute in Sub-Saharan Africa and South Asia.

Poverty, health, education, and economic growth all are impacted by the lack of clean water and sanitation in these communities, creating a perpetual struggle for basic survival.

The world water crisis is created by a confluence of factors including climate and geography, lack of water systems and infrastructure, and inadequate sanitation, something that 2.6 billion people (40% of the world’s population) lack access to. Some of these countries have additional problems, including high levels of arsenic and fluoride in drinking water.

Even with these unsanitary conditions, many women and young girls in rural areas in Sub-Saharan African and other parts of the world must trek as much as six miles everyday to retrieve water for their families. Due to this manual labor, such women and children are prevented from pursuing an education, maintaining their households or earning additional income.

Just wanted to give you something to think about as you are drinking your bottled water, etc.
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belle and sebastian//new pornographers show recap to come later today.

for the love of the indie-rock.

2006-03-20T14:58:00.000-08:00

NPR has a live belle and sebastian/new pornographers broadcast posted on their website. or just go here --> for those who will be missing out on the show tomorrow night. (reese)

i plan on downloading that baby when i get home. i also plan on purchasing the new neko case record on my way home from work. she is one bird who can REALLY sing.

so sad that shes not touring w/ the new p's. boo to that. but oh well. carl newman has hilarious stories.

some people think they're always right.

2006-03-20T13:01:00.000-08:00

mood: sleepy
music: the strokes- impressions of earth

this weather makes me LAZY! incredibly lazy. i would like very much to go home and watch tv or lay in bed and read. that would be nice. damn the man.

i just came back from having lunch with joce and ryan. we had pupusas--reveuletas--i dont know how to spell it (pork & cheese) are yummy in my tummy. and also made me full so now i want to take a nap.

yesterday i stayed in doors all day. i make no apologies for it. it felt good. i did work out though on my exercise bike, and did some crunches and weight lifting. but mostly i did nothing. i watched some more of nip/tuck season 2. that show is... well... overly dramatic and ridiculous--but i'll continue to watch it. i spent some time reading about teri hatcher's childhood tragedy in the latest vanity fair. later on in the day i began to catch up on the current season of 24. thanks tyler for putting the first handful of episodes on tape for me. dang. i am still hot for jack bauer. the show is seriously addicting. but... the main event of the evening was the second new episode of the sopranos. WARNING: SPOILER ALERT. STOP READING IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO KNOW ANYTHING THAT HAPPENS THIS SEASON. STOP READING NOW. okay. so this episode was extremely dark and sad. if they kill off tony soprano i will feel a mix of emotions i am not yet prepared to deal with. first. i would feel cheated. cheated that i had to wait two years for new episodes, wait two years for more of tony, and to have him be shot in the first episode is just cheap. but second... it could make for an extremely intense and bad ass season. with no clear person in line to replace tony, and with the clash of characters... it could seriously give the show a major kick. i dont know though. killed by uncle junior, aj is right, that would be just embarassing. but i dont appreciate the mummy head jokes at junior's expense. the man has a disease. im not excusing him, but dementia is a sad illness. well. what do i think is going to happen? i think we are going to have to say goodbye to tony. last night's episode made it really seem like the characters were saying their goodbyes to tony, and it was such an intense episode that i cant imagine him being okay. and if he doesnt die, im not sure he will even remember who he is anymore (they alluded to memory loss). but... we shall see. we shall see.

tyler just called me about 24. we chatted a bit about the first three episodes of this season. they finally addressed a problem i felt the show has had over the last couple of seasons. the inability to let some of its characters go. lets just say that the first episode took care of the problem. good stuff. tyler is also helping me w/ group hookups for the new movie "thank you for smoking" which i am organizing a field trip w/ the youth to go and see. the trailer for the film is HILARIOUS.

speaking of movies, i went and saw v for vendetta on saturday. i had to avoid making comparisons of the film and the comic book, which took about half of the film to do so, but in the end i really enjoyed it. i did scoff during one scene in the film that was very hollywood. mizz portman is hoTT stuff though. im looking forward to checking out the inside man, the latest spike lee joint. i still wanted to see block party too.

saturday evening i went over to eidelyns and michaels for their get-together/party. i had a lot of fun. drank some really good punch and some good irish beers left over from st. pattys day. also had some healthy and not-so-healthy snacks. enjoyed good conversation with people i havent seen in a really long time. then on the way home me and lulu were stuck in accident-traffic (w/ a fatality), that had us parked on 85 for at least an hour and a half... getting us home somewhere around 4-ish.

okaaaaay. going back to doing work now. new pornographers & belle and sebastian show is tomorrow night! i cannot wait!

xoxo.

sarah silverman + jon stewart = a happy thursday morning.

2006-03-02T08:45:00.000-08:00

mood: calm.
music: rude sarah silverman//subtle jon stewart

so i brought my boom box into work this morning so that i can catch two of my favorite comedians on the adam corolla show. i was desperately trying to find a spot in my hell box//closet//cubicle that would be the less fuzzy frequency for 106.9 free fm. i also realized mono stereo makes it less fuzzy. noice!

aye. the satellite glass guy came to replace my broken windshield. its been broken for about a year people. two fairly large cracks running across my windshielf. yes. i know. bad. but hey, its getting fixed now, while im at work--no extra charge. which is awesome. im glad he made it by 9:00, you never know with that four hour block they give you... but of course he came right when jon stewart came on. haha.

last night was the first part of the season finale of project runway. it was cool to hear more about the final three designers and their background. im still rooting for santino regardless of the fact that he's arrogant. i appreciate the fact that hes honest and gives an honest opinion of what the other designers are creating--besides most of the time he's right anyway. my prediction is that santino will win project runway, and if he doesnt... thats crimminy.

going to see stereolab tonight with jeff. woo free show! (thanks jeff) i think we are going to hit up amoeba ahead of time, which probably isnt good for me because i dont have really much money to spend, but maybe i can get at least one thing.

this lady that works on the other side of my cubbie is this really really quiet lady, and then when she gets on the phone shes the loudest fucking person on the planet. i know that we can sometimes get loud on our side of the fence, but dang. lower the volume lady.

ok. time for some crudeness from the adorable sarah silverman. i heart her.

on a quest to see a film...

2006-03-01T16:15:00.000-08:00

music: the hold steady- separation sunday
mood: hungry & tired (today feels looooong)

its been a couple of years, two i think, since ive attended cinequest. prior to my not attending, i had gone for 5 or 6 straight years. i stopped because the festival was getting too popular and even having purchased advance tickets for screenings, getting in wasn't guaranteed because of hoity-toity badge holders. bah! ive kinda missed going though.

so driving through downtown san jose today i was reminded by the red street light banners that cinequest starts pretty much today.... dang. i hadnt even had a chance to thoroughly look through the program guide. now im at work quickly trying to look at what sounds interesting, and what showtimes are feasible for me, and which shows are least likely to require me getting there 3 hours early.

i decided this one could be interesting. ive always had love for william h. i also want to see "thank you for smoking" but i'll wait til its released officially so that i can organize an outing with some of our youth advocates... during work time! hey! its a work-related film. see for youself. but what else is there? i need suggestions. whats the buzz? what about this one? im not really too sure about this one... could be cliche. im always a little skeptical of woody allen comparisons... so not sure about the west wittering affair. i usually try to attend both the comedic shorts and the student shorts, but not too sure this year. its hit or miss and the comedy shorts are always soooo crowded. i think this year i might try out the animated shorts. i wonder if the animated short that lauren worked on got in. it should have... it made it to sundance afterall. i'll have to spend more time looking through the emerging mavericks and new vision category.

please let me know if you have any suggestions.

isnt it time to go home yet? or go have dinner at krung thai w/ joce, lulu and tyler?? i think its a choo-chee tofu kinda night. then later its part I of the finale of project runway... and a cheese medley-extravaganza.

ok. thats all thats in my mind for now.

i will miss you tonite jack bauer! i truly will.

everyone has left the building...

2006-02-27T17:28:00.000-08:00

this office gets danged quiet after 5:oo p.m. kinda spooky. especially with all the rainy weather.

so i bought my ticket for at least one noise pop show earlier this afternoon. surprise surprise on that one. i might attempt some other shows, but not sure yet. make sure to check out the full schedule. i wouldnt mind seeing the dirtbombs again as they are fucking rad live, but i hate going out to the independent... parking blows and i dont really know anyone who would want to go to that show.

tomorrow i have to drive to marin for a conference/forum on Tobacco & Hollywood. its an international day of action on the topic.. not sure how international it will be considering that other countries probably have more important issues to deal with than brad pitt smoking in their films, but hey. all in the name of a good cause. and speaking of good causes..... sign this & sign this one as well.

so i got my ticket in the mail for the belle and sebastian//new pornographers show. i cannot wait! two of the best live acts ive ever seen and both great for dancing. especially after hearing the new b&s disc.... definitely a dancier album.

time for me to get off work now. sounds likes the rain is CRAZY right now. soup for dinner.

don knotts was awesome.

2006-02-27T13:28:00.000-08:00

r.i.p. july 21, 1924 - february 24, 2006.

i resisted until i saw this.

2006-02-23T10:53:00.000-08:00

i resisted making any comments about the whole cheney shooting incident because i thought it was already funny w/o any commentary... that is...

until i saw this picture this morning while going through email, and it was in the music for americ a e-newsletter. brilliant.

awww comedy. between that and overly excited g'n'r fans doing axl impressions over the phone, i cant stop laughing this morning. awwww. laughter following astute observation. shared by friends. so great. i love ron burgandy. that film is so great and grows on me after each viewing.

don't act like you're not impressed.

mood: silly
music: wolf parade- apologies to the queen mary.

100 churros sold in the rain...

2006-02-17T16:05:00.000-08:00

music: ladytron- witching hour.
mood: fulfilled.

no matter how glad i am that high school is way over and done with, still have lots of love for mt. pleasant food festivals. especially now i can sell churros for our club then leave... nothing beats it. that campus has some mad-crazy amounts of clubs. they have an anime club. hehe. and even a breast cancer awareness club called "the bra club". cute.

whats with the rain?? booo. todays lunch called for soup at omogari. yummy. soft tofu and mushroom. the spicy-factor could have been upped a bit, but it was good overall. i wanted to go down the street to the manju shop and get some mochi but the rain prevented that. they only make the ones i like (the strawberry one) thursday, friday and saturday. oh well. perhaps next week.

im trying to read this curriculum called "media & internet advocacy guide" but my mind is distracted because its friday and i want nothing more to go home already. plus this ladytron album is dancey and getting me antsy to leave already.

mmmm lorna just gave me some brie and fig spread to take home.

why are my blogs so boring?? all i talk about is food.

only 45 more minutes... woot. woot.

fuji apples are the bomb-diggity.

2006-02-15T17:54:00.000-08:00

spent almost the entire work day surveying tobacco retailers in south san jose. takes FOREVER. gotta check that their followin' the law, keeping the window coverage down, got all the proper things posted and what not. not exactly the exciting part of my job, but it needs to get done.

at least nob hill was one of the stores i had to survey so i used that time to buy some more bananas and fuji apples. mmmm mmm mm. i also bought elle magazine cuz sleezy women's fashion magazines are one of my guilty pleasures.

i finally get a portion of my pay check tomorrow! ive been dirt poor the past two weeks and its really forced me to budget tons better than i ever have. i plan on keeping it up, but its also nice to know that i could go and watch a movie if i wanted. which i dont know if i would anyway considering the amount of crap movies that are out right now. i plan on checking out curious george though... and i still never saw king kong. plus capote is playing over at the camera 7 so i might have to make some time for those ones.

i wish it was friday already. i'm looking forward to a psuedo weekend-away... which is not really away just in palo alto, but away from my house. staying at a palo alto hotel and eating sunday brunch. yum yum. cant beat that.

okay. work is done for the day. time to head home.

this is the most boring guy ever!!

2006-02-15T10:33:00.000-08:00

music: sia- colour the small one.
mood: relaxed.

key lime yogurt is crazy delicious. tastes like dessert.

my valentines day was nice. we made dinner, hung out and watched goodfellas. =) i think im learning to appreciate that movie more and more (meaning pesci doesnt bug me so much), and i actually made it through the entire movie without falling asleep. the falling asleep thing is not due to the movie, but due to the fact that i can barely seem to keep my eyes open until 10 p.m. these days. thats just sad. but i made it through then watched the westminster dog show. that bull terrier was cute.

went to WONDERCON this past weekend. way more crowded than before... seemed like the dealers room was more cramped than last year, which sucks a little bit. not too many booths i was really interested in though. i thought about making some purchases from top shelf, and the view askew table... and slave labor, but then thought that i could probably borrow them from people, instead of spending money i didnt really have. the best part for me was the kevin smith panel, but mostly because of the clip from CLERKS 2: the passion of the clerks. the clip was awesome... a debate over THE trilogy.... star wars vs. lord of the rings. im excited to see it in august. the MI3 panel was a little boring, but the director was nice. the panels are funny generally because of the crowd, and how easily they turn on 1) horrible qestions 2) people who know less than them and 3) people who ask for things: autographs, script-handoffs and parts in their films. i took some pictures too that i will try to post up later today.

wondercon got me thinking about attending comic con again this year... even if the madness gets me frustrated, and i pretend to be annoyed at the massive panels, i still am a complete sucker for pop culture and nerdiness. i think it might be a nice birthday gift to myself to head back to it this year... after about a three year hiatus. i also like APE too... i think the small feel of it, with a concentration on print comics... i think i am most tempted to make purchases there.

i saw stars and the elected on friday w/ jocelyn. it was a really good show. the fillmore was sold out... which i realized once we got in was due to the fact they toured w/ death cab. because i did a music-snob survey of the crowd and determined that the young age group was indeed because of death cab. it was later confirmed when torque (who gets on my nerves a little bit) asked the crowd who'd seen them on tour w/ them and the crowd went nuts. can't hate too much though cuz they knew the songs. i was happy w/ the set list... especially when they did "elevator love letter"... . the elected were also good.

i subbed lulu's show on sunday. it was good times. i got lots of phone calls about what i was playing and it was a nice feeling. makes me miss dj-ing when you get calls like that. i also burned a ton of music... gotta keep up on whats new and hot or i get thrown outta the music snob club.

project runway night tonight! only four people left........ and i think kara is going tonite. my prediction from about 4-5 episodes in was that daniel, chloe and santino would be the final three. we shall see.

peace out.

happy hearts day!

2006-02-14T13:22:00.000-08:00

mood: loved. :)

i cant wait to get off work and be with my valentine. sorry for being cheesy.
thats all for today.

xoxoxo.

monday lazy monday...

2006-02-06T12:40:00.000-08:00

music: none.
mood: tired but happy.

i think im still recovering from lack of sleep over the weekend and mostly due to saturday night. though ive gotten quite a bit of work done this morning... and now im just stalling so that i can wait until as long as possible to take my lunch hour... which will be spent at home eating leftover superbowl snacks and watching the first part of "cool hand luke".

speaking of the superbowl... there were some lame-ass commercials. i think car commercials should be banned from being able to advertise during the superbowl. my favorite was the fedex commercial (they must have some talented advertising folks cuz they hold the title for their dancing one from last year). but i loved the fedex one w/ the cavemen. hands down... best commercial. i thought it was odd also that philip seymore hoffman is going to be the bad guy in "Mission Impossible 3." weird. any way... didnt actually make it up to alex's superbowl, and began watching it a tad bit late, but it was still a nice and mellow sunday that including eating a lot of foods that my stomach wasnt too happy about.

saturday night. hahaha. girls night out in santa cruz. me. berenice. jocelyn. nicole. lulu. yubani. i will sum it all up in one phrase increments. four bars. dancing. drinking. puking. not me. me = designated dave. first red room. guiness. apple martinis. lemon drops. many for lulu. vodka tonic. gin and tonic. bloody mary. salad. haha. good conversation. laughs. next blue lagoon. dancing. horrendous music. my humps. my lovely lady lumps. coatcheck. blond drunk girl. likes lulu. extra cash. vodka cranberries. more bad music. next bar. catalyst. bad break dancing. another vodka cranberry. next bar. dakota. better music. more dancing. drunken states. photos being taken. last call. 50 cent. depeche mode. my humps. my lovely lady lumps. more dancing. more photos. laffy taffy. nicole knows all the words. haha. stupid song. bar closes. people drunk. back to blue lagoon. recovered lost coat. people still too drunk. head to saturn cafe. crowded. toga. medusa. vegans. santa cruzans. waited. seated. ate. lulu drunker. yubani does impressions of puking. we laugh. nicole won't eat a french fry. lulu out of it. pay check. walk to truck. drive. highway 17, truck puked in, on, and outside of. ewwww. yuck. gag. gag some more. wipe off. drive some more. freezing. lark ave, truck puked in, on, and otuside of again. ewwwwwwww again. much apologizing. tired. get lulu home. clean truck. clean some more. me & joce back to my house. next day, clean some more. nathan grossed out. take his truck instead. monday, clean some more. gag some more. lorna, gag some more. laugh. laugh some more.

hahah. taking care of drunk friends.... sometimes funny sometimes not. i still love lulu, but girllll... learn to stick your head further out the window!!! hahaha.

was still a lot of fun...

ok. time for lunch.

i can't get started...

2006-02-03T11:27:00.000-08:00

music: broadcast- tender buttons
mood: unmotivated & mellow

i dont feel like being at work right now. i want to go home. lay in bed. read. and watch bad day-time television. must be the rainy weather. on top of that, im feeling very lethargic today. i dont want to do any work. cant motivate to do any of the boring as well as the not so boring tasks i probably should and could be doing right now. oh well. its a friday. plus im working tomorrow, so i deserve a break. dont i?

i went running again this morning. that makes three times this week, with a couple of good walks in there as well. plus ive been doing 100 crunches a day... so im feeling pretty healthy. at least this week i am. on top of it all, i will be cutting down on the eating out over the next two weeks because i have approximately 40 dollars to last me another week and a half. basically about two weeks. i cant budget. i cant afford my 900 dollar a month rental. well.. i cant afford it and also save money in the process. i want to move. move to a situation thats is cheaper.

things are very relaxed here at work now that my boss is gone. our new boss isnt even stationed at our office... shes at another program/building. kinda odd. though we are a very self-sufficient program i suppose. my new work schedule has been nice too. nice little 10-6 schedule. i like having time in the morning to go running, shower, watch some t.v. and get ready for work at a very relaxed pace.

there are actually shows coming up that i want to go to. stars. belle and sebastian & new pornographers, though i still need to buy a ticket. and then the noise pop lineup is getting ready to be announced. i saw that the dirtbombs are playing. i might have to trek up there for them. they are awesome live. plus there are some other bands ive been told are good live and perhaps i will check out some live music.

im supposed to go hang out in santa cruz on saturday night (tomorrow night), but having just found out i have only 40 dollars to last me two weeks, i dont see how it would be fun to go out and not be enticed to spend money on drinks at the red room (which are NOT that cheap to begin with), plus eat dinner, hang out, etc, etc, etc. although, maybe i could talk my friends into buying me a drink or two. and i guess if i be the D-D i won't need to drink that much to begin with.

wondercon is next weekend! im going at least on saturday. wanna spend some time looking at comics that i wont be able to buy (but might be able to borrow from comic-nerds like eid, tyler and now even joce). i would like to see kevin smith again as well. that was fun last year.

also valentines is coming up! i want to eat some valentines sugar cookies. mmmm cookies are one of my favorite food groups.

i need to spend some time at the station burning new music...... im beyond behind and there are a ton of albums ive been wanting to hear.

sunday is the super bowl. ive always liked watching the super bowl, and going to super bowl parties. luckily my friend alex (up in sf) is having one, so i can go and veg and hang out.

im happy. and in a random mood. gotta go out to a school now. at least blogging passes the time.... =)

i take it out on my good friends... (isnt that what good friends are for...?)

2006-01-27T15:46:00.000-08:00

music: stars- heart
mood: full

i feel blobby. i miss running. starting this saturday with jocelyn im going back to running every day, since my work hours will be adjusting to 10-6 every day. which is nice. i also have a new boss. also nice.

i know ive said this a hundred times already, but i also think i need to ween myself off of drinking so much coffee. its been a lot lately. 2 to 3 big cups a day. its causing a lot of heart burn i think. well.... gotta change my diet any ways. need to start bringing lunches to work and cooking dinner. i need to save money, not to mention eat healthier. do you think cooking korean food is difficult? =)

i LOVE stars. im excited to go see them in february. thank you to a very nice boy for buying me tickets [for valentines day]. i dont necessarily believe in valentines day, but i am a TOTAL SUCKER for some of the valentines displays and merch. arg. some of the stuff is SOOOOO cute, plus im a sucker for hearts, so ya know. valentines = lots of hearts.

ive found a new drug. its name is jack bauer. im obsessed with 24. i cant get enough, and i cant get it fast enough. keifer is bad ass. im looking forward to going home tonite and watching more of season 3--PLEASE DONT TELL ME ANY SPOILERS. i wll hunt you down and cut off your head if you do.

i finished my intersession class this week, therefore, i am now OFFICIALLY a college grad. yay. my intersession class sucked ass, sadly, but at least its over now.

i think i might be allergic to lee's sandwiches! =) last nite i ate the vegetarian sandwich and afterwards i found it hard to swallow/breathe. like my throat was contracting... it was bizzare and scary and mostly just uncomfortable. though it could have been the nasty-ass pork buns that i will never get from there again. blah.

happy friday the 13th...

2006-01-13T16:53:00.000-08:00

thank goodness its friday. is it just me or has this week felt entirely too long? im waiting for lorna so we can go get coffee... tho, most likely i'll just wait to have some with tyler when we go and eat dinner.

ive decided to skip out on the "passion party" that my sister invited me to go to tonite. basically its a company that comes in to sell you sex toys. sounds kinda sorority girl-ish to me. plus... i dont really have money to spend. ;) any way. ive traded the passion party in for helping out the boy with fundraiser duties, cuz im nice and i like helping people out with stuff. plus... it feels like a good night to just kinda stay home and chill and watch netflix, drink coffee/tea and lounge about.

my intersession teacher is horrendous. seriously. some people arent meant to become teachers. oh well. seven class sessions left.

ok. well time to go..... more later.

can i please just order my burrito?

2006-01-09T14:46:00.000-08:00

happy new year ya'll. everytime i sit down to write something on this blog, all my clever little thoughts are gone and replaced with exhaustion.

the year has been good to me so far. all 9 days. im three days into my intersession ethnic studies class at san jose city college. (its the final 2 units i need to officially be a college grad and get my diploma.) there's a lot of hand-holding going on in the class, something im not particularly used to (and don't really care for), and im finding it annoying and hard to deal with. luckily there are only about ten more class sessions. today we spent half the class time reading our course books silently, then the remainder watching the movie norma rae. im wondering when the teacher is actually going to begin teaching.

ive been catching up on movies... still have more to see. so far ive seen brokeback mountain (twice), its a really great movie, with an honest and believable story that is told in a way that doesn't feel rushed or hollywood-ized. heath & jake (HOT), also gave great performances that felt geniune. any way, i liked the movie. one of my top picks of the year. i also saw munich this past weekend, which i thought felt a bit long at times, but is still one of the more interesting and relevant movies that ive seen this year. along with goodnight and good luck and syriana. props to the clooney. ive also seen a couple of pretty bad movies the past couple of weeks: rumor has it (horrible!) and the family stone (even more horrible). i wish mark ruffalo would stop making romantic comedies and hook back up with kenneth lonergan. blah.

im still waiting to see king kong, match point (seems identical to crimes & misdemeanors though), memoirs of a geisha and narnia. there's also talk of a movie-hop day to see the ringer and grandma's boy. yeah. im being serious. it wont be instigated by me, but i will inevitably be there. =)

and on a last note--before i set out to do some manual work around the office, i would just like to say that i find it somewhat annoying that when all i want to do is go into taco bell and order my spicy chicken burrito and nachos for lunch, i first have to be hit on and harassed by the boy taking my order. (who was oh so sad that i unfortunately had to take my lunch back to work--and not sit inside and have him harass me even more.)

grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

lego my eggos...

2005-12-29T10:21:00.000-08:00

over the christmas break i remembered how hard legos + putting things together (bionacles) can be. it really tests your patience.

did anyone else find eggos to be really nasty?

'tis the season to get presents...

2005-12-28T14:34:00.000-08:00

here's a lovely photo exhibit of some of my christmas gifts.... =) im getting nerdy or updated with my camera and photo programs/software. =^)

old-fashioned popcorn maker! everyone knows that im a tad bit popcorn obsessed (and seasoning obsessed--hence the selection of seasoning located in the cabinet of my popcorn maker).... so this gift is my favorite one this year (and one of my tops of all time). thank you to a very nice boy in my life. now i can be ultra nerdy and pop my own popcorn before jetting off to the movies.

i also got a lot of gift cards this year.... so the clothes below are all things that i actually picked up for myself. but thanks to tyler, lulu and my mom for enabling the day-after-christmas shopping to be so successful. i managed to pull together and purchase one winter green coat (shown), three plain t-shirts (white, mustard, and lavendar), white work shirt, a greyish blue pullover sweater, earings (pictures next to the dylan photo album), and a cute long-sleeved snoopy shirt. not bad. my sister made me the photo album of dylan. its very cute. she also gave me two shirts and needed items for my camera (camera bag, rechargable batteries and a charger). plus she gave me her nomad which she no longer needs cuz she's all fancy with her video ipod.

my parents gave me the nice cuisinart cookware set. its something i actually needed, which is nice to not have to spend money to buy. i'd like to start spending more time cooking or at least trying to cook. =) really.

for more photos of my gifts... visit my flickr site...

that's some good reasons.

2005-12-27T16:04:00.000-08:00

been a bit preoccupied today with blogs, reading news, flickr and adsense. yeah. i added some stuff to this useless blog. check out the side panel. click on my google ads to earn me some cents. purty-please?

im just about off work now. had no lunch break today, so i get to go home and eat spinach dip and watch replayed gilmore girls/sex in the city on dvd (most likely choice).

i will update about my x-mas vacation shortly (w/ photos included), but for now i will conclude by saying that it was a really nice time, especially it having been the first time away from my family.

peace out for now....

happy egg-noggin' & present openin' to all...

2005-12-22T09:55:00.000-08:00

i got the most wonderful gift last night--an old-fashioned popcorn maker on the roller wheel-cart! it rules. its nice having a boy who loves me to give me such a nice gift. now i can have popcorn parties. popcorn parties in my house... MY HOUSE... (sung to the tune of lcd soundsystem's "daft punk is playing in my house"). i also got some very nice gifts from my parents last nite, and a nice gift that allows me to go shopping from tyler. awww. i've missed shopping.

any way. just wanted to wish everyone a merry christmas & happy holidays.

the time it takes to get from here to there...

2005-12-19T09:37:00.000-08:00

mood: nerdy & nostalgic & journalistic
music: mix cd i made two years ago... (that dog, the ponys, weakerthans, the network, mates of state, moving units, strokes, new pornographers, the walkmen, etc)-- ALL THESE SONGS RULE!

back in music nerd mode (and blogging nerd mode). at least for today. i started off browsing the myspace music site... figuring out a new song to add to my profile. not really too nerdy. i ended up getting a little late to work as a result, oh well. i settled on stars- your ex-lover is dead... mostly because i just wanted to hear that song again (and im planning on picking up the album sometime today... mmmmaybe).

so then i picked out some cds that i havent heard in awhile. one... im almost embarassed to admit was the anniversary. but they're good for the car. then i listened to annie- heartbeat... one of my favorite singles of the year--hands down. its too catchy to ignore.

i started writing down some songs for mix-cds that id like to make for people... thus if i have some time this week, that is what im going to do. being abscent from kscu for the past six months has been good, but now im kinda missing the new music... and knowing whats coming out, and whats overrated, and what not. once i got into work i checked out pitchfork to see whats going on for their year end lists.... they, as always, had too much to say on that subject... basically i need to spend more time on the internet, is what im sayin'. ;) im not ready to go back to kscu yet.

sometime this week i will try to pull together my top ten albums of the year list.

reading through my blogs this morning i discovered this really cute little "toy" store called blobby farm. the little stuffed animals (?) are so adorable. a little pricey, but very cute. i already bought some gifts for my nephew though, so maybe they will be of use to someone else. haha. i think they are probably more enticing for older folks any way... i like shark dog 2 and toothy mchairlip 1.

i graduated this weekend. my ceremony wasnt too bad. one extremely boring guest speaker and a pretty cheezy disney pop group performance... but other than that it was nice, i thought. i will try to post a couple of pictures once i upload them into picasa. and little dylan is the most adorable baby in the world. i will post photos of dylan the elf soon too. i promise. any way, thank you to everyone who came out to my graduation, and took me to dinner (and treated =) and to lunch and for drinks. i love you all.

its almost christmas. my shopping is actually pretty much done. i have one thing to exchange, which i will do today, and then one last thing to pick up (that i already know what it is--it just needs to be fresh when i buy it). =) ive started wrapping, and hopefully i will get most of the rest of them wrapped tonite. this is the first year that i wont be spending christmas with my family. its a little strange, but also nice at the same time. plus hopefully i will get a disneyland trip outta the deal... so i can visit the holiday nightmare before x-mas mansion in its last year (as its getting moved to disneyworld. boo).

i listened to howard stern's last terrestrial radio broadcast on friday. its going to be a little weird not listening to him in the morning. i know that he is rude and silly, but its a nice thing to wake up to in the morning... something not so serious. any way... yahoo has the broadcast on their website. i enjoyed drunk artie's speech the best. unless i decide to get a sirius radio... i will probably just listen to npr or kscu or cds.

i dont know what i want for lunch: korean bbq, cambodian (mmm catfish!), or brazilian (joao's?). maybe i will just run errands and eat something cheap... hmmmm. we'll see.

go... gamma... go

2005-11-18T17:22:00.000-08:00

yeti shirts! weenie-dog purses! i want! i want! i want! well... somethings i want to buy as gifts for people. i would like a little weenie-dog purse though. they are adorable. have no idea what im talking about? check out the gamma go sale tomorrow! or at least look at their stuff online.

so much stuff to do this weekend... gza show tonite (hopefully i won't piss off any big guys with my beligerant drunk ways... like last time), teshia's bday dinner, sharks game, MOVIES galore... walk the line & harry potter, softball double headers.... and a midterm on monday. it makes me happy also to think how i only have 2-3 days of work next week. and that i get paid again on wednesday (or technically tuesday @ midnite). AND THAT IT'S ALMOST THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!! i get hungry just thinking about it.

well its past my getting off of work time... i want to go home and sit my ass on the couch and watch an hour or so of tv before i have to leave to go out for the nite.

last parting words: wal-mart pisses me off.

i wanna crash here right now...

2005-11-18T10:06:00.000-08:00

mood: cheerful & motivated
music: new pornographers- twin cinema

so... ive decided that there is something i need to work on about myself. im going to make a conscious effort to try and stop taking things personally all the time, and try not to be overly sensitive about things as well. lately ive just noticed that ive been really sensitive when it comes to certain people in my life, family & friends, and it gets to the point of really bothering me. it just makes me think too much about what it was that really made me get THIS upset? and i dont know anymore... whether there are really other issues that are bothering me, or if its just me taking things personally and reading them a certain way that they arent meant as. so yes. thats my little revelation....

do coffee and strawberries go together? that's my breakfast. i was going to try and kick my coffee addiction, and make the switch to green tea, but i think i'll just drink both. with the coffee im just going to stop with all the sugar... drink it black..... although, i did that yesterday and i thought i was losing my mind. this time, when me and my co-worker traveled next door to the overly-priced expresso garden, i added a little milk and one sugar. i think i liked it better black. i need to channel all the caffiene energy thats about to hit me, into wanting to do manual-labor-type work today, because i really want to organize the office here. i have a lot of that kind of energy for some reason. ive also been thinking about ways to rearrange my apartment because, well... basically because i get bored.

ive also decided that i miss writing. i miss being a blogging whore. even if its just stupid and uninteresting things i did one day, or random ass thoughts that pop up into my head. im going to write about them.

i think the fact of the matter is that with my graduation approaching im starting to get a little stressed out about what exactly i want to do with the rest of my life... not that i have to figure it all out. i dont believe that people should have to do that. its just that the questions keep coming... them: "so what are you going to do now"... me: "i guess... work." me again: "yes. at the same place i've been for six years." its just getting a little depressing for me.

bamboo 7 last night was fun. managed to control the drinking (which is usually a bit hard there), kept it down to only two beers over a two-hour + timespan. i was pretty proud of myself. plus i left around 11-ish, which alan made sure to call me "grandma" before i left. thanks. thanks a lot. no one from our group really sang, except lulu of course, who sang the carpenters. though maybe people sang after i left.

ok. the caffiene has hit me. i need to go and start organizing... while lorna is gone. then i can actually get rid of stuff.

the new pornographers make me giddy!!!!!!! and want to dance and sing and act like the silly & crazy person i am. or more like a 13 year old........

peace out.

nicole.

O'Reilly to San Francisco: "[I]f Al Qaeda comes in here and blows you up, we're not going to do anything about it. ...

2005-11-17T19:34:00.000-08:00

i'm here at work still... around 7:20 p.m. they keep shutting the lights off on me.. because county employees generally call it a day by 5:30, latest. goodness gracious, whats a girl doing working til 7:20 p.m.?

any way... basically im catching up on my blogs, news, gossip, etc... and i came across bill o'reilly's latest moronic comments about san francisco's political views as a city. lets just say i've gotten very distracted by this... yes i'm put off by his comments, yes im annoyed, yes im a little scared, but im also a little entertained. this guy is something. i recommend reading the transcripts . they are pretty great. he says the same thing OVER and OVER. he continues to throw out 9/11 as a reason for going to war, but what does that have to do with IRAQ? these same stupid arguements. any way... read the transcripts and follow the links to delve deeper into the story because it does make for a good read. to entice you... here are a few choice quotes that i found especially brilliant:

If I were President Bush, I would just go in and say, “Alright, that’s fine. You don’t want to help us in World War III? We’re just gonna withhold federal funding, except for children’s programs.”

You know, this is the hallmark of the left: Cheap shot everybody. Come out with the most insane things you can. Convince your Kool-Aid drinking crowd to follow you. Look, San Francisco is a beautiful city. It is now a disgraceful city. You can’t even walk around the city without seeing people doing appalling things in the streets.

What I said isn’t controversial. What I said needed to be said. I’m sitting here and I’m looking at a city that has absolutely no clue of what the world is. Yet the left-wing, selfish, Land of Oz philosophy that the media and the city politicians have embraced out there is an absolute intellectual disgrace.

You know, if I'm the president of the United States, I walk right into Union Square, I set up my little presidential podium, and I say, "Listen, citizens of San Francisco, if you vote against military recruiting, you're not going to get another nickel in federal funds. Fine. You want to be your own country? Go right ahead."

im getting tired of reading about san francisco as being all left-wing liberals... there are some amazingly progressively-minded advocates in san francisco. there's a huge difference between the two... and really i could go on for days about this crap, but i will let you read for yourself and form your own opinions.

besides... im hungry and korean bbq is calling me.

xoxoxo,
nicole, your abscent blogger...

if i fuck up sometimes, i still want you by my side.. i want you so to be mine...

2005-10-28T10:00:00.000-07:00

mood: sleepy but happy. (counting down the hours until i get off work... if im getting off by 8 p.m. that makes ten hours from now.... blaaaaaaaaah)
music: the legends- up against the legends (i forgot how much i loved this album, top ten of 2004)

im a lazy blogger. i havent felt like writing really lately, or maybe i just havent had much to write about. im trying to be better about being more discrete and keeping things to myself rather than broadcasting them to everyone. makes for a boring blog though.. right? i dont even think anyone reads this anymore anyway.

six weeks left of school. SIX FUCKING WEEKS. seriously. can you tell how excited i am about this? i dont even know what im going to do with myself. all that free time. first, im going to make sure to enjoy it for awhile. spend some time on the couch with my good friends, mr. t.v. and mrs. netflix. i want to throw myself a graduation party. then i will probably get bored of that quickly and figure out some other projects or classes i want to take. or maybe work a lot so i can save up money to travel. i really want to go to SXSW this year, but the way things are going, i dont think i'll have the money saved for it. oh well. not a big deal. although i wanted to take advantage of the fact that eidelyn still has connections to the parties and secret-shows.

my sister is getting married in like seven months and little dylan is very cute.

im excited that its practically winter/rainy season. winter weather puts me in a jolly mood, i mean oooohhh little saint nick kinda jolly (sorry--random reference to beach boys christmas album, which rules by the way). back to winter... im quite the fan. what i love: dressing in layers! hot chocolate or coffee! the christmas lights and decorations! its a romatic season! i have a cute boy to cuddle with! going to the movies during the day then getting something warm to eat or drink after! staying home cuddling on the couch with blankets and a movie! ordering delivery! (makes me miss san francisco, badly!) rainy weather makes me want to act silly! im a big fan of the winter wardrobe. i dont care how broke i am, i cannot resist winter clothing!!!!! im beyond weak when i see a cute scarf or a coat that i of course HAVE to at least try on, then it looks so cute on me that OF COURSE i have to buy it. you know how it goes JOCELYN and TESHIA and all you other girls. i really miss buying shoes too. its been way too long!

if no one has anything to do on halloween, come to silver creek high school to support the young folks i work with who are puting on a haunted house! its free & there is free trick-or-treating at the school and various other activities! its going on from 5-8 p.m. bring your little brothers/sisters, cousins, neighbors, random strangers kids, whoever.

hmm. im bored of this blog already.
time to bust out the lists.

things i want to accomplish today:
* finish my powerpoint slides for my community mental health class.
* buy pumpkins. i may not have really the $$ for this, but i dont care. i HAVE to have a pumpkin.
* vaccumn my apartment and wash the dishes.
* finish the final disc of veronica mars season 1.
* get off work before 8 p.m. (this means getting all the electrical tactics for the silver creek haunted house DONE quickly)
* have a beer.
* snuggle on the couch and watch t.v.
* hook up my now working computer.
* buy bread, milk and fruit, and other economical items.
* have a conversation with jocelyn thats not via email or voice messages. havent talked to that girl forever!

things i want to do this weekend:
* see the weatherman (i heart nick cage--he is NOT a scientologist)
* go to bamboo7 for some karaoke.
* go to nates softball games at weird twin creeks field. still havent had a beer! i need someone to come out with me so that im not drinkin' solo.
* have breakfast.
* be completely prepared for the haunted house on monday.
* spend some time being lazy.
* not work crazy amounts of hours and not get paid for it (haha, fat chance).
* make a pretty banner for the kscu fundraiser.
* meet w/ my community mental health group to prep for presentation (okay, i dont WANT to do this, but i have no choice).
* read. for fun, not for classes. (i still have a chapter or so left of the miramax bio and i need to finish it already)

ok. in the time it took me to write this blog ive already moved on to another cd. i promise to try and write more. even if its really stupid stuff.

like for instance, the other day i attempted to tackle the renegade drinking fountain that attacked me a month ago at san jose state.. and it was going okay until AGAIN it went crazy and squirted water all over me. whatever. im done with you drinking fountain. bastard.

it's been hella days...

2005-10-05T15:19:00.000-07:00

what can i say? im tired. im sure interesting things have happened, yes they have actually, but im too tired to write about them. i will soon though.

i did discover lulu's live journal. yay! its linked on the sidebar.

ummmm. okay. bye.

love, nicole

im that nerd from that movie...

2005-09-12T16:44:00.000-07:00

mood: very tired.
music: none. listening to my thick-accented teacher lecture.

so i was feeling thirsty, so i stopped at the drinking fountain before my pr class. i was taking a drink when all of a sudden the fountain decided it wanted to shoot out at full pressure. yup. my entire face and glasses were sprayed with water, just like on tv or in silly movies. i laughed then looked to see if anyone saw me. when i recognized that no one did, i escaped up the staircase and wiped my face with my sweater sleeve.

boo to sjsu drinking fountains. :)

more brooding and melo-drama on a thursday evening...

2005-09-09T12:40:00.000-07:00

mood: happy!!!
music: nada. just the sound of my hungry tummy.

so last nights season premiere of the oc can basically be summed up by the following observations:

- show starts off with a brief re-cap of the dramatic tales of last season, kirsten becomes a drunk, gets into a car accident, father dies, drinks some more, has intervention, goes off to rehab. seth and summer enjoy their romance. ryan's brother comes into town, trys to rape marissa, ryan finds out, tries to kill him, marissa shoots trey (ryan's brother). then starts season 3...
- season begins... trey is in a coma, cuz the writers are too pussy to kill him off.
- police questions all-involved, form a plan to frame ryan for the murder, despite marissa's confession.
- at some point, seth makes witty comment about iTUNES and ryan broods a lot.
- enter julie cooper. aahh. the oc's only remaining villian (rip caleb nichols).
- the widowed mrs. cooper makes some threats, things get all twisty and dramatic, and all this basically ends with the frequently versed marissa line, "stay out of my life."
- observation: marissa looks more waify than ever. and peter gallagher's eyebrows are looking better than ever.
- kirsten doesnt want to leave rehab, because the show needs another villian (which looks to be a mini-kirsten, who is in rehab with her). mini-kirsten villian seems lame. need further proof.
- show basically ends resolved, with trey going away, leaving ryan and marissa to carry on with their boring relationship.
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i took my fifteen minute break here at work so that i could call and wish my little (and only) sister a happy birthday. shes 22 today. no answer so i left her a message. i spend my break hanging out in my truck, listening to the end of fanali's movie hop show, and im happy to hear a familiar and loud voice. thats right folks... FACO IS BACK. i missed that guy and his spiderman glove.

any way, their show was ending, so i switched it over to the rewind at noon, and was pleased to hear them reading an email about bob mould... growing up in the household i did, i have my dad to thank for getting me into bands such as husker du, the replacements, wire and generation x. so.. listening to them talk about bob mould... i knew it would either be a husker du, or sugar song. i desperately wanted to hear sugar and worked my voodoo magic, and lo-and-behold, "if i can't change your mind" came on. and this song, is hands down one of my all-time favorite songs, EVER. it made me HAPPY. then the next request was for lenny kravitz, so i took that as a tell-tale sign that my break was over. i cant stand lenny kravitz. bleck.

ive spent the majority of my day so far reading blogs (caught up on the life of kevin smith and discovered that he's doing an episode of joey, and that he is in love w/ veronica mars, and i read some other political blogs that just made me angry, so i stopped), and compiling boxes of materials for tomorrow's park event. my truck is now packed with bibs, first-aid kits and various other freebies.

last night i spent some time going through the many songs from various blogs that ive been wanting to stream/download. ive heard most of the new kayne west album... though in truncated format, since the freebies dont contain the full song, just about half of it. i heard the new ashlee simpson song... "boyfriend". ahahhaha. she rules. the song does sound a little hot hot heat-ish. any way. i watched the subtle video for "FKO", which is rumored to mean, "Fuck Kelly Osbourne", but who knows. that video was rad though. it has a ton of cute little japanese inspired robot/blockhead cartoony stuff. i checked out the bjorkestra-stuff that i think was on the stereogum blog, but i cant be sure. it was a jazzy version of bjorks, "army of me." lastly, i checked out the special tv on the radio tune, "dry drunk emperor" that was recorded and inspired by the events of hurricane katrina. *sigh* i did not vote for the man. there's tons of more stuff i want to check out when i have some time. probably tonite when i get home. YES! a day that ends at 5-o'clock! i am thrilled.

this weekend... hmmm, besides working most of saturday, will be spent catching up on the 10+ chapters i need to read for school, spending time with laura, spending time w/ the gallagher brothers & my boy.

spam has reached an all-new level.

2005-09-08T18:45:00.000-07:00

mood: accomplished.
music: the go! team- thunder, lighting, strike.

so its around 6:45 p.m., im still at work. i feel good about this week. i attended every single one of my classes. actually the only class ive missed since school's started was my first lab for my biostats class, due to a doctors appointment. AND i made up the work from last week in today's lab, so =P. i rule.

any way, so today i got a rather annoying text message from a one mr. 95164. it read, "Please use the following URL to download your digital media [web address]." WTF! did i just get a SPAM TEXT MESSAGE?? what in the hell! of course, i am WAY too lazy to type in the bazillion numbers and letters of the URL to see who the company is that actually sent this message. perhaps it's a SPRINT related company, but i dont know. spam text messaging. how freakin' lame.

i'll be working seven hours or so this weekend and the BIG OL' GRAND OPENING of the GUADALUPE RIVER PARK. if you plan on checking it out (there's lots of stuff going on; free admission into childrens discovery museum, lots of food, music, celebrity softball game, etc), any way, if you plan to check it out, stop by the arena green area and visit me at our public health booths (we have like five tables). distractions by friends will help the time pass quickly! PLEASE! plus i might need someone to buy me food, since i only have 46 bucks left in my account and i have to use that to purchase gas. growl.

watched "crimes and misdemeanors" last night, a netflix selection. i think its one of woody allen's better films. i'd seen the first half before, but not the ever-so-uncomfortable conclusion that allen has perfected. that poor neurotic man. well.. he's a poor old gross neurotic man, so whatever. i plan on watching "the machinist" when i get home and being grossed out by how skinny christian bale will look. im sure its going to be a disturbing evening for me. at least i will be getting home around 7 p.m. it'll be the first time ive gotten home before 9 p.m. all week. apart from monday.

i was also highly entertained, though probably more that i should have been, at one of howard's [stern], games today. it was "family fued", daniel carver of the KKK, versus wendy "the retard". yes. i know. VERY HOWARD STERN. i used to be offended by this type of humor when i was 18, but now im older, therefore more bitter and my humor is more cruel. its true. any way... i wished i could have heard more of this game show because it sounded classic. i did manage to hear two of the categories... the first one was, "what names are most offensive to call a Jewish person?", and the other one was "name a job that is often held by retarded people." man. i know.

whatever.

i'm going home now. oh, and season 3 permiere of the OC starts tonite. hell yes bitches.

the weight of the world, falls straight on your shoulders..

2005-09-07T15:14:00.000-07:00

mood: drained & hungry
music: her space holiday- the past presents the future

i'm tired. today is a looonng day for me. im hungry. i was running late this morning so i didnt have time to bring something to eat. since i have no money, this poses a problem. so far ive eaten some grapes & a piece of melon (left over by one of my co-workers who left it in the kitchen), and the rest of my mustard pretzels left over from yesterday. thus... i have to wait until i get out of class around 9 p.m. to eat again. blah. so im a little on the tired and cranky side.

then this morning i had a lapse in my memory that for some reason made me think my first class (bowling) was to start at 9 a.m., so i was rushing across campus and got to the student union bowling alley and the door was locked. so i waited around and then they opened it up, and i was sitting around and no one was there. finally some girls came in and i asked them if the teacher planned on showing up, and that was when they reminded me that class actually started at 9:30. oh well. i could have made my self a sandwich or read for some of my classes, but nooooo. i had to be stupid instead.

i do get to go and see oasis for free on sunday though. im excited about that. :)

here's a top ten list of things that would make me happy right now:
1. to go home and eat.
2. to go home and sleep.
3. to go home and watch a netflix.
4. to go home and watch t.v.
5. a thai-iced tea/mocha cooler.
6. a hug.
7. a beer.
8. chili-cheese fries. (i have a craving)
9. hearing the new kanye west album.
10. someone telling me they love me.

more time to waste...

2005-09-06T13:15:00.000-07:00

not a lot of time to post. just discovered some new blogs that i dont wanna forget about, thus i post them here.

torr --> rad site with lots of stuff to download. must remember to check this out at home and download stuff! :)

gorilla vs. bear --> blog w/ random music info and mp3's! weee.

daily sonic --> mp3's!!! free mp3 magazine...

mad professor --> cool toys/comics/neat shit in blog form that this dude writes about.

i added some other sites/blogs that i check regularly as well. those are more well known already tho.

thank you to julie (and avi for sending me the link), so i could download a copy of the new her space holiday album: the past presents the future. i plan on spending a lot of time with it. and i promise to STILL buy it when it comes out in stores as well.

i applied for this yahoo! study about internet useage, but they havent replied back to me yet. cross your fingers! i wanna get paid to surf and write about pop culture!!

time to go organize boxes in a room somewhere...

oh and happy birthday to jeff!

i sold my soul for the second time.

2005-08-31T15:07:00.000-07:00

mood: upbeat
music: oasis- don't believe the truth

we had our fitness test in my running ("jogging") class today. i got a 45 on the flexibility test, which is good. the highest is like 50... i'll get there. ;) luckily the batteries ran out on the machine that tests your % of body fat. i have an extra week to work on that one. ha. and then we were timed on a 1.5 mile run. i did allllllllright. i beat some guys and some girls. it hurt a lot less than the 30 minute walk/run thing we did on monday. thus... i feel like im improving. i still need to buy shoes and someone to help me with breathing techniques, do those help? any way. it still took about an hour for the color of my face to go back to normal... man was i red. gave me quite a bit of energy... though im starting to fade, and im sure im gonna be fairly exhausted by the time my class ends tonite at 8:45.

but... i did get a working computer back from my dad yesterday, so i plan on hooking that up tonite. which means... MORE BLOGGING. we'll mmmmaybe. actually i plan on catching up on the reviews that i owe eid & kscu... they have been collecting dust for the past month, and i suck.

congrats to the kscu softball team for the first win of this short season. their new team name is craig's-shroom-headed kscu djs & friends... well its a working title.

speaking of kscu... i found out this past monday during my show that the burner worked so i went to town. i burned about fifteen cds... which ones you ask? these:

oasis- definitely maybe
killers- hot fuss
kaiser chiefs- employment
sage francis- a healthy distrust
diplo- florida
pernice brothers- discover a lovelier you
elkland- golden
annie- anniemal
felt 2: a tribute to lisa bonet
m.i.a.- arular
snow patrol- final straw
snow patrol- when its all over
the free design- the now sound redesigned
the go! team- thunder, lightning, strike
architecture in helsinki- in case we die

ok. off to a school for a meeting.... exciting blog post, i know. but you still read it so =P

xoxo,
nic

i guess we'll just have to adjust....

2005-08-25T09:19:00.000-07:00

mood: cheeky & cheery
music: arcade fire- funeral (fuck people on craigs list for selling tickets for 75 bucks. lame asses.)

the day started out well. i managed to not feel extremely exhausted when i woke up this morning. which is unusual. i drag myself out of bed and put on a replayed (i dont have tivo, yo) real world austin from this week. that show is so stupid. then i did my morning exercises, which im very happy with myself that ive been keeping up with. i rule. then i decided i had time to watch an episode of gilmore girls season 3 (rory disses dean... AGAIN for jess). any way. i was too lazy to shower... i havent showered in like 3 days. gross. :) but i know i have a short day today, so i figure im not stinky (i'm not!), so i can last. plus its been all cubicle work this week so no one really has to smell me if i do stink. so =P.

i have impressed myself with my eating habits lately. i actually go to the grocery store and buy fruit. :) and i eat it. today to work i brought the following items: yogurt (boysenberry--its my favorite!), a banana, a plum and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

any way. i get into work and check my email and there's an email from my instructor for my biostats class telling us that all the lab classes are canceled until he holds the lecture class. SWEET. my class was supposed to be today. so instead, i finish up work at 2:30 and get to go home early! now i can take a shower, watch my netflix (the notebook, deadwood, and overnight- this documentary on troy duffy that kevin smith's blog told me to check out), and do other stuff.

i really miss my computer. being such a blog whore can be draining when i find all this awesome stuff i wanna download or listen to, and my work computer won't let me !!!!!!! booooooooooo!!!! i need to call my dad and force him to work on it, since i doubt he has even started. i havent even heard the new her space holiday album yet! someone burn it for me until it comes out in stores!!

im looking forward to this weekend. relaxing. school is gonna kick my ass this semester and two of my probably most time-consuming classes i havent even had yet. my bowling class is a combined intermediate/advanced class. we have to maintain an average above 120. i was intimidated at first, but i realized 120 is not so bad. especially once i learn all the fancy techniques. we are also going to have to compete amongst eachother in individual and team competitions. kinda scary. and my running class... man. why did i sign up for this class again? we have to jog around the campus! around the perimeter. so please, if you see me, dont laugh at me. :) oh well. at least i will be getting in awesome shape. i need to buy running shoes. dsw here i come. hopefully i wont be tempted to buy other cute girly shoes... cuz im going through MAJOR fucking shoe withdrawals.

two shows that were just announced that i might want to go to:
death cab for cutie/stars @ the warfield: 11/13.
broken social scene @ grand ballroom: 11/9.

anchor steam brewery tour is tomorrow, so today is my friday! :)

this blog is all over the place. time to go.

i love the arcade fire and im glad ive seen them twice already or else those craigslisters might have a sucker-customer. tho.. they are fucking rad live...

i have problems.

2005-08-19T11:14:00.000-07:00

current mood: excited and happy!! (coldplay!!!!! & korean food!!!!)
current music: foo fighters- in your honor (disc 2--i still have a fat crush on dave grohl).

disovered another blog. ha. i found this one cause i was stalking myself and she posted about my kscu dj alter-ego, and two other kscu djs; bardot and clarity. any way. this right hu-ere is the blog. the post im referring to, is here. interesting. well. not really. any way. she posts A LOT.

i also posted links to some more blogs that ive recently discovered..on the sidebar, yo.

my computer is at the doctor. well, at my dad's work. hes attempting to fix the problems its been having. such as re-booting every time i log in, or just plain ol' freezing up. fucking useless machine. hes going to get me some equipment to help prevent this from happening in the future. 'bout time. ive always been the computer neglected one in the family. "oh nicole doesnt care about technology-related shit, just get her anything." while this is true, i still like my low-grade products to at least function. hopefully it should be fixed before school begins on wednesday.

i also applied to be part of a focus group for women about car care. hahaha. as most of you know, im not really that caring when it comes to my truck. two big cracks in my windshield, dunno even when my last oil change was, hasnt been washed in over a year. the two hour focus group pays 75 bucks though! i really need that 75 dollars. they better select me.

coldplay concert is tonite. we'll be parking ourselves somewhere high up on the lawn, tho this time i'll be smart enough to bring a blanket to sit on. and warm clothes cuz it gets pretty cold there at night.

dunno if anyone, besides the one person i know for sure, listens to howard stern in the mornings. but i have been pretty much listening daily and today was pretty hilarious. willie nelson was on, and one of howard's cast of characters--jeff the drunk, made a deal to behave if he could come in to meet him. shit was hilarious. they sang a duet together and that shit was better than elton john and kiki dee. okay. that reference makes no sense, but you catch my drift---BITCH.

had indian food last night. mmmmm. royal taj indian food on camden is still fucking delicious. the curry chicken makhanwala or whatever is THE DISH! shit is sooooooooooooo good. mmm mmm mmmmmmmmm. j-town korean food for lunch to celebrate mine and lorna's pay-day! ive been waiting for this for two weeks! just one more hour to go.......

are you the music snob of my dreams?

2005-08-18T13:51:00.000-07:00

i spend way too much time online. reading blogs. finding enjoyment from people who have a similar dry sense of humor to me.

thus... when i discovered the blog that hosted this picture, i was quite happy. i laughed out loud and was very pleased. that picture is now my wallpaper here at work. oh. and the actual blog that had the link/posting for this is called, "rock snob: because we're better and we know it." you can find it here.

ive decided i want a job where i can surf the internet all day long. can google hire me? or better yet, i'd like a job where i surf the internet all day, then write about what i find. an internet surfing journalist! come on! ive seen people who have this job. they arent any better than me, and who cares if all i have is two years of journalism in high school. ive taken a couple of journalism classes at san jose state! doesnt years of blogging and being a music nerd/pop culture junkie count for something? especially with my sparkling personality!

and if i cant have a job like that, i think ill just go back to customer service type jobs. a job where i can see an end to the day. jobs where there requires no self-motivation to complete work. jobs where its just something that you HAVE to do. you HAVE to serve the price-complaining, whining fucking bitch of a customer their tub of artery-clogging greasy buttered popcorn. they give you the five bucks for it, you give them their receipt and tell them to enjoy their movie. you HAVE to clean up the large soda that has spilled for the THIRD time because people don't listen when you tell them to carry their cups from the bottom. and you HAVE to give them their money back when the film breaks down because 16-year-olds who are getting paid $5.75 are running the projectors. well i dont want to go back to working at a movie theater. i could work in a bookstore, maybe a used one to keep some hipster-points or something. perhaps i could work at a video store. do you think bradley video is hiring? i always liked working at mrs. fields. free cookies and milk whenever i want. yeah.

where's my snack-pack?

2005-08-18T11:33:00.000-07:00

here's my top ten favorite things to do when i go home during lunch (pg-rated version ;)

10. eat blueberries and watch vh1 countdown polls.
9. eat ice cream/popscicle. i think i have one drumstick left!!!
8. determine a way to get out of going back to work. (always fail)
7. lie down and not think, and just relax.
6. scan for weird biographies on the tv.
5. start watching a netflix movie.
4. read. more anton chekhov short stories for later.
3. exercise.
2. make a sandwich (today will be tuna fish again).
1. watch replayed gilmore girls.

amusement by blogs.

2005-08-16T09:06:00.000-07:00

funny read in the morning ---> JT to Gwen: "Kizz My Black Azz" gossiping bitches is awesome. definitely check it out. well its good when they actually update.

summer is near over. one more week and i'll be in school, bowling & jogging, and doing some bio-stats and other nonsense. ive been doing a ton of reading lately. almost finished with philip k. dick's time out of joint which is getting pretty good. in fact, i wish i wasnt working so i could just be reading. miramax/sundance/indie film doc. is picking up too now that kevin smith and quentin are taking over.

ummm. music. im seriously lagging. i need to find out if the burner in the kscu studio works because i have some catching up to do.

stuff i need to burn:
* the go team! * pernice brothers * felt 2 * proem * four tet * beck (all three albums/remix stuff) * prefuse 73 (new ep) * the free design (remix album) * daedelus * lali puna * sufjan stevens * annie * architecture in helsinki * oasis * kaiser chiefs * m.i.a. * boom bip * loquat * elkland * snow patrol * feist *

stuff i want to buy:
*the new white stripes (i would burn this--if i could) * the new ponys ep * new pornographers- twin cinema * clap your hands say yeah *

upcoming shows i will definitely be at:
*coldplay, 8/19 * new pornographers, 8/24 * her space holiday, 9/20 * new pornographers, 9/27 * hold steady, 10/18 * broadcast/gravenhurst, 10/28 *

shows i'd like to go to, but we'll see:
*ted leo, 9/7 * oasis/kasabian, 9/11 * feist, 9/17 * 13 & god, 9/30 * download festival: killers, arcade fire, doves, 10/8 * architecture in helsinki, 10/18 *

happy as a girl that lives in a world of make-believe.

2005-08-04T09:01:00.000-07:00

mood: cheerful
music: the cure- acoustic hits

my friend avi went undercover at the national young republicans conference in vegas. he wrote an article about it. i read it all. i enjoyed it. :) i recommend reading through it.

i watched the film, "wild at heart", last nite. had the more twin peaks-y david lynch feel to it, which is definitely better than the current "mullholland drive" david lynch. bleck. i liked nick cage in the film. then again, i always love that guy. it was actually a pretty good movie. willem dafoe was pretty great too.

finished reading craig thompson's blankets. i have no idea why it took me so long to read this. i started and finished it all in one day... not a hard task, as its a graphic novel. it was very good, as i knew it would be based on the recommendations of eidelyn, avi, teshia and jocelyn. thanks joce for lending it to me, and sorry i had it forever! :)

now ive started reading kurt vonnegut's slaughterhouse-five. and im still hacking away at the rise of independent film, miramax and sundance biography. its a bit of a task, the author needed better organization of topics, but at least its beginning to pick up w/ the intro of quentin tarantino, and more films that i actually recognize. robert redford is a bit of a prat. (ive been reading too many books by british authors... i blame nick hornby).

i wouldnt mind reading this. ha-ha. well maybe id check it out from the library.

forming feelings and thoughts into songs...

2005-07-29T16:08:00.000-07:00

mood: at ease.
music: rolling stones- forty licks (disc 2)

so over the last couple of days ive been formulating a mix cd/tape... most likely i'll make it into a cd if my computer cooperates.

here's what i have in mind so far.. not in any order yet... its all boy "rock" cuz thats what ive been into listening to lately...

get up kids: valentine
jimmy eat world: cautioners and kill (yes two songs!)
foo fighters: walking after you
bloc party: modern love
her space holiday: from south carolina
coldplay: sparks
rollings stones: beast of burden
shins: gone for good

and if i actually had a copy of the song, u2: city of blinding lights. yes. i would actually put a u2 song on a mix cd. the world is coming to an end.

i cant help but feel those sad-romantic songs... you know me.
not sure what else. i have to further think about this. :) it will be an awesome mix cd though.

i think i want to go home and watch almost famous after work, before heading over to tyler (nerd house's) bbq. im taking all the beer i have left at my place... tho i dont plan on drinking. alcohol and dizzy-bladder meds dont mix. plus im hooking them up with boca burgers i bought. im silly when i go grocery shopping hungry and buy a lot of food... im only one person. i can't possibly eat that much in a couple weeks. oh well.

who's the one who needs to prove....

2005-07-28T15:02:00.000-07:00

mood: cranky & in need of cheering up.
music: none. forgot to bring anything in to work.

my mind can only form small thoughts at the moment. its on overload.
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i want to see the bad news bears, asap.

i dont know what im doing from now til sunday. there's a possibility of going to two bbq's. not much else.

i feel bloated from drinking so much water.

im tired of mood swings.

im tired of being so understanding all the time, and not feeling like its reciprocated. it makes me want to give up.

i get to go home in an hour.

i plan to finally eat something. probably a sandwich and some fruit, or maybe carrots. or both.

i also plan on watching gilmore girls.

perhaps i will go to the free show tonite at coffee society in cupertino.

on the other hand, i do have two netflix coming today, so maybe i can watch one of those and dream that someone is petting my head and bringing me cranberry juice. ;P

we'll see.

i think i will visit my sister next weekend.

i start school in 3.5 weeks.

i hope armando calls me tonite so we can hang out sometime this weekend. ive missed that guy. i met him when we worked over at century berryessa, aka: hell. he's awesome.

i absolutely cannot stand waiting. it makes my stomach hurt. doesnt matter what it is.

you make me wanna la-la.

2005-07-27T09:48:00.000-07:00

mood: eager & chipper
music: ashlee simpson- autobiography (don't hate!)

yay. happy its already wednesday. our big state progress report for work is due by friday, hopefully things won't get too stressful at work. my part is pretty much done, so shouldnt be so bad.

didn't bowl that great last night. i blame the fact that earlier in the day i had to help move a big queen bed to an upstairs apartment and was tired from that. plus, i had a casualty on my right hand, aka: my bowling hand. i have internal bleeding (the bed frame pinched me!!!!!!!!!!! boo. stupid bed frames). so anyway, first game i bowled a 95, the second game i bowled a 122. not as good as last week. although.. props to homestead lanes for providing me with a yummy peanut butter and jelly sandwich that only cost me 92 cents! thats awesome!

i went home after and watched the real world austin. this show hasnt been good since the new orleans cast, but somehow each season i get sucked in, even when i start to hate it. but this one in particular has me interested only because i wanna see the south by southwest episodes, plus austin is really rad. the reason im talking about this is because they keep showing this sign for heart-shaped pizza, which i think is amazing. i want a heart-shaped pizza. heart-shaped any food, besides candy that was pre-made that way, is awesome. i am obsessed with heart-shaped things, patterns, etc right now.
(<-----super awesome!!!!)
all the fruit i bought is gone. :( i finished off the last of my blackberries when i got home yesterday. they were pretty decent. too expensive though. need to go grocery shopping today. im looking forward to spending a mellow end of the work day at home. i need to do a lot of cleaning and some more unpacking (mostly getting rid of crap i dont really need). im going to try and stop eating out at places so much. i need to save some money so i can pay off my 6,000+ credit card debt. damnit! thus.. im also trying to get my finances in order. i remember when i first moved out of my parents house, three months after my 18th birthday, i would pay every bill as soon as it came. now i wait til stuff gets turned off, or nearly turned off. no more of that. at least my truck is almost paid off. only about 4-5 months left. woohoo. that will be a nice little pocket of money to put towards savings.

alright. doctors appointment shortly. i dont think ive fully recovered, since i had to go to the bathroom like ten times this morning. i want a magic pill to make it go away. fuck tom cruise and scientology. give me meds!

i love ashlee.

41 random fess-ups and observations.

2005-07-26T16:00:00.000-07:00

1. i now love and am obsessed with the u2 song, "city of blinding lights." (still hurts to listen to it though)
2. i sometimes make and eat minute rice.
3. i think im actually looking forward to starting school.
4. i've been listening to howard stern almost daily.
5. i have a soft spot for the kelly clarkston song, "since you've been gone".
6. i've decided to concentrate on making myself happy more than other people.
7. i really want a pet.
8. i dont miss being a kscu music director.
9. i'm debating quitting kscu all-together.
10. i had a dream over the weekend that i was doing cocaine. (i'm not)
11. i have recently decided i really like blueberries. (thanks renee)
12. i want to rearrange my apartment.
13. i'm letting my hair grow out.
14. i'm cutting back on my sugar intake and eating more fruits & veggies.
15. i'm depressed about a most-likely death on six feet under.
16. i cried a lot at the end of harry potter and the half-blood prince.
17. i still need to buy gilmore girls season three on dvd. :(
18. i finally watched all of the components of the latest r. kelly masterpiece and i think its one of the funniest things i've ever seen in my life.
19. i like downtown vegas more than i like the strip.
20. i've been enjoying reading more than i have going out to bars lately (i'm getting old).
21. i really love bowling.
22. my truck hasn't been washed in almost a year.
23. i'm going to buy a fan this weekend for my room.
24. i want to buy a waffle-iron.
25. i really, really miss living in san francisco. i especially miss my old apartment.
26. i want to go see the arcade fire at the warfield, but don't know if anyone else is going.
27. i'm annoyed at the fact that tbs stopped showing ed and replaced it with becker. boo.
28. london is a scary place right now. for a country whose police don't carry guns, the whole "shoot them in the head" thing is a little... what? do they have zombies over there? s-c-a-r-y.
29. i want to see wedding crashers again. and batman. and star wars.
30. i have a collection of beer bottle caps, labels, etc. im trying to try as many different kinds of beers as possible.
31. korean, indian and mexican food are my three favorite genres of food.
32. i've really been into "boy" rock n roll lately.
33. i want to go to reno again.
34. netflixing tv shows is super awesome.
35. i think sushi is overrated. though i like some of them... but don't like to eat it that often.
36. i have no idea what kind of career i want to have anymore. i have a lot of thinking/experiencing to do.
37. i want to hit up old thrift stores (st. vincent depaul, goodwill, savers, etc) for old furniture.
38. i want to start borrowing books from libraries more often.
39. i still need to get a copy of bon voyage charlie brown to prove that snoopy did make a naughty hand-gesture.
40. i need to buy some new bras.
41. i'm happy.

bladder infections blow.

2005-07-26T12:06:00.000-07:00

current mood: happy-calm, but physically ill.
music: none. the sounds of the keyboard.

im back from vegas. as you might have guessed from the subject head, i got a bladder infection. it first occured on friday... yes,... IN VEGAS. i was so completely bummed out (i'll post a vegas blog up on myspace as soon as i can). the bladder infection is still in effect. i havent had one since i was very small... they are sooooooo uncomfortable. today it feels really minimized like it might be going away, but it could also be all the drugs im taking. i think i'll stop taking them today and see if it reappears, then... back to taking the drugs. plus, doctors appointment tomorrow if need-be.

so bummy as it was that my only summer vacation was cloudead by an infected bladder... i am actually pretty happy to be back home. the weather is AWFUL in vegas. crazy hot. plus i had the worst diet over there. i ate so much bad food that all ive been eating since i got back is fruits and veggies and tofu and homecooked meals (by my mommy, not me). i am still pretty sad about the vegas trip (though i did still have fun)... it would be nice to take a short little mellow trip somewhere before the summer ends. but i guess there's not much time left... school starts in less than a month for me.

i went to the little fruit stand by my house on winchester (near 85). that place is very expensive. but i bought a couple of things any way: blueberries, blackberries and nectarines. all are very yummy. especially the blueberries which i have already finished off. i plan on hitting up my favorite little street-corner guy, over by silver creek high school for some cheap strawberries and cherries though. yum-yum.

going bowling tonite. pinnettes representin'!

my heart is yours... its you that i hold on to...

2005-07-20T13:45:00.000-07:00

awwww. coldplay. i love them. i dont care how many people mock chris, and his campaigns (making trade fair is a good cause, btw!), and his spazzy dancing, his sappiness, his supposed 'soul-less-ness', him having a daughter named apple (ok. that you can definitely mock)... but i still love them. and its exactly thirty days until i see them. so =P

today has been a good day so far. its pretty nice and beautiful outside, not too hot. hard to be anything but cheerful on a day like this. later on i think i'll take a walk over to san jose city college to chill on their grass and read more about sundance, miramax and the weinsteins. good stuff. they are interesting people, and by that i mean completely nuts. hopefully while im there no one will mistake me for a homeless person and try to offer me a job. or perhaps they will and i'll take them up on it.

it hit me today that i only have one more month of freedom. i start school on august 23rd. be prepared to not see me at all until december from that moment. im not kidding. im taking five classes and i need to bring up my grade point average. plus im going to be working any free time i have in between classes, and probably later hours. coldplay will be my last really fun summer thing before i have to settle down.

whats up for the rest of the summer then? only one month left... here's whats going on... and what i want to do: go to vegas (leave tomorrow), camping (august 8-10), coldplay (august 19), visit my sister (any free weekend?), dads bday (august 13), see some shows (pernice bros: july 30, the ponys: august 12, new pornographers: august 24), hang out with friends, keep going bowling every tuesday (our team is called the pinettes--and watch out teammates cuz i start intermediate bowling at school in august!), read as many books for pleasure as possible, make my house feel more homey & less like an in-limbo place im just staying at, keep up with running/walking daily, spend full days in san francisco & berkeley, go to a giants game (ive already been to half of an a's game), and lastly, make a trip to the achor steam brewery. RICH... WHEN ARE WE GOING???? i have mondays off! :)

ive decided that i think harry potter book six is my fourth favorite of all of them. i rate them in the following order from most favorite to the lesser favorite: 4, 5, 3, 6, 1, 2. the fourth book has always had a special place with me, same as three, though i think five is still better. six is still really good, but im not sure how it'll sit with me over time.

bad news bears comes out on friday! i have to wait until sometime next week to see it though, since i'll be out of town. plus theres one person in particular that i need to see it with. im so excited for this movie. i have a big crush on billy bob thorton and i also love the original movie. plus from the creators of bad santa and school of rock... it can't be all that bad.

im going shopping after work to valley fair for the third day in a row. day one was for me, spent most of my gift cards, day two was jocelyn's fault. also her fault that i bought a sweater. today is berenices fault, but im not buying anything today, so i should be okay.

back to progress report for work............. i wish they were quarterly and not just twice a year! too much information to remember and not enough documentation!

peace out.

listening to: coldplay- parachutes (so many favorites on this album, so many.)

moving forward with happy things...

2005-07-19T10:15:00.000-07:00

i have decided to stop letting things get to me and dwelling on them to the point of being depressed because i know it wont bother me a day or two from that point. i want things to progress for me and the only way that can happen is to be pro-active, and try to trust people. i know trust can't be forced, but i know i need to just let things bounce off me and not react to them. just let them go and disregard whatever bad feelings i may have about them. they are not what matters. actions are what matters. really. words without action are just empty.

so that is my new philosophy, or way of dealing with conflicts that may come up. i am not saying im going to become some repressed little girl, that i will just hold everything in. cuz come on... thats not who i am. :) the petty things though... those pesky little things that get to you, but rarely mean anything in the long-run... those types of feelings can just fuck off. i know what i want... and i know it will make me happy... and i know its worth it. (most of you probably have no idea what im talking about... but the person its meant for, if ya still read my rants, knows what its about... so hmpfff).

i feel pretty happy today. i feel like its gonna be a good day.

i leave for vegas in two days! we finally have everything booked! we are staying at circus circus one night (saturday). that should be fun. i plan on staying indoors as much as possible. i HATE HATE HATE that its going to be into the 110's over there. thats scorching hot. ugh. i know that vegas is the place to get drunk and go hog-wild, but im sticking to my new mellow to non-drinking nicole. i have very strong personal reasons for me cutting WAY back on drinking, and this vegas trip is going to be the ultimate test--especially since its a girls trip... which generally involves lots of partying. we shall see, but i have faith in myself, even if no one else does. so if you notice me going out less to bars... err and especially popscene (cuz i cant STAND that place unless im drunk)... its not that im avoiding people, its more of a way to avoid drinking. though... im down to go out and have a beer or two at a bar once in awhile. i just need for it not to be a routine thing. again... MODERATION.

its bowling night tonight. i finally rejoin my "team". they threatened to kick me off the team if i didnt show up tonite, and said they would make it an all-lesbian team. so i better show up. besides, can't beat 2 dollar bowling. i dont know if i even have two dollars, but hopefully berenice can loan it to me. im pathetic. last night i ate rice and popcorn (not together) for dinner. i seriously was scrounging around my kitchen looking for ANYTHING to eat. i have zero dollars until thursday.

oh. and i finished harry potter. :\

now playing: jimmy eat world- clarity (this cd makes me want to make-out!)

forget it.

2005-07-14T15:12:00.000-07:00

i erased my depression definition cuz it was depressing me. i think i have a chemical imbalance. really. either that, or its a combination of making stupid decisions.

everyone is going to comic con this weekend. NERDS. i'll be too busy reading harry potter.

vegas is next weekend. guess we should book a hotel, and a car. the group is down to five. should be fun. hot as hell, but fun.

i need a vacation.

work progress reports hurt my head. or is that just the coffee?

thanks to tyler for the wonderfalls dvd and the caramal cappachino shake. mmmm.

now listening: keane- hopes and fears. =( (at least i stopped depressing myself by listening to jimmy eat world!)

we had pleasure.

2005-07-13T16:50:00.000-07:00

today was fairly productive. i ran a staff meeting. fun. my co-worker (not lorna) bought me a mango cake for my birthday and they all sang for me. that was nice. i also got my kscu access card reactivated, and verified that it worked. it did. i preordered the harry potter book, finally. ate some thai food. mmm thai-iced teas on a hot day like this make me happy. i paid my cable bill so i can watch some tv when i get home. i looked for hotels for vegas. found that most of the cheap ones i'd prefer to book are full, and found some other expensive rooms for $150. and up. arg. i got my work badge replaced after going to a billion places back and forth. man. its really hot out there.

after work im gonna go and check out that movie, "you me & everyone else" at santana row. i need to get out of this heat. ugh. i hate hot weather. afterwards i might hang out for a short while w/ shawn... get some ice cream or something. get my bday gift. =)

i feel tired. i really need to go home and clean and do laundry. i plan on going home early enough to take care of this. i feel like being a hermit... im tired of organizing stuff. i also have a free staff pass for built to spill tonite, and ive never seen them, and really should go, but im so lazy! and plus i have no one to go with.

i need to buy a fan for my bedroom. its too hot to sleep lately!!! might be due for a target visit. speaking of... i gotta go shopping and spend all my gift cards i received from my birthday! thank you thank you to everyone for my gifts: mom&dad (coldplay!), rach (the baby!), eid (nordies card), teesh (urb. card), jeff (amc/streetlight), rich (lemony snicket), robin (candles), bridget (card & $5 to buy a drink!), erika for the card and everyone else who bought me a drink, and everyone else who is still going to give me a gift (that have verbally told me!) =)

congrats to the kscu softball team for finishing up a decent season. milestones better than last season. it was fun.

okay. feeling a little off today. probably the weather. almost time for popcorn & a movie.

now playing: foreign born- in the remote woods (startime international)

hurray for checking my email.

2005-07-12T11:20:00.000-07:00

i was going through a bunch of emails, and i discovered this gem of news:

Wednesday - August 24th 7:00pm
The New Pornographers
Amoeba is so excited to present the New Pornographers, live in support of their brand new album, Twin Cinema, out August 23rd on Matador Records.

"Brains-across-the-dashboard power pop... a group experiment gone right — rock where the beat and ideas come faster than you would expect." - Spin

Do not miss this supergroup of pop perfectionists, starring Neko Case, Dan Bejar, John Collins, Kurt Dahle, Todd Fancey, Carl Newman & Blaine Thurier.

that fucking rules! i will soooooooooo be there! alan... you will sooooo be there too right? neko, up close and personal????? haha.

now playing: helios- unomia (merck)

home sweet home.

2005-07-12T10:23:00.000-07:00

last night i finally spent a night in my own bed. after house-sitting for my parents thursday through sunday, then going down to santa maria, it was way over due for a nice mellow night at my own house.

its official. im old & im an aunt!!! the baby was born on my 24th birthday, lil' dylan michael beard stole my birthday! the little cutie-brat! hes the most completely adorable baby!! hes pretty well-behaved too, not a whole lot of crying, just mostly when he's doing a poopie, then he looks super happy after. such a boy. i got to spend 24 hours with him, and i cant wait to see him more as he grows up. my sister is healthy and happy and it still doesnt feel like she's a mommy. i promise i'll post pictures soon or post them on my myspace. so be on the lookout!

my birthday was fun! had too many drinks at the cinnebar, and was even triple-fisting it at one point. perhaps thats why the last thing i remember was leaving my own birthday. ahaha. well it IS my birthday--so i can do as i please. i made it til 1 a.m. though! thanks to everyone who came out and celebrated with me! bought me beers! cards! gifts! etc! love ya guys.

after last weeks festivities (mine & letis bday), i need to scale back the drinking. blacking out is not good. so expect me to be cutting down (i said CUTTING down, not stopping). i have to learn the art of MODERATION.

today entails...
*working late. boo.
*paying cable so it can be turned back on.
*turning in reviewed cds to please eidelyn and get units! =)
*book hotel for vegas, reserve rental van. (how did i get put in charge?)
*going to last kscu softball game. (unless a miracle happens and they make playoffs)
*going out after for food/beer (in MODERATION, ok!)

i am in a very happy mood! yay!

now listening to: skeletons and the girl-faced boys- git (ghostly international)

not having money blows!!!

2005-07-07T00:10:00.000-07:00

so my bank account is -$173.67. this sucks! i was hoping my rent check wouldnt go through until tomorrow, when my check for work gets deposited. no such luck! now i have to pay that stupid 36 dollar fee for having a negative account!!!!!!!!!! BOOOOOOOO it all to hell. happy birthday to my broke ass!

its my friend leticia's birthday tonite, and i think we are all going to the blue monkey. i also want to check out the *new* dance nite at the blank. basically still 80s new wave mixed w/ some indie stuff. theyve been starting to integrate the two for awhile now anyway... slippin' in the white stripes, ladytron and the rapture week after week.
(the love bugs) ha. im so clever!
yesterday i treated myself to a movie over at the campbell plaza. i saw herbie fully loaded. haha. im such a dork. i thought it was an okay, cute little movie. predicatable and all that, and a bit trying on my patience but not all that bad. i got to use up my first birthday gift: a coupon i got from cinelux theaters for a free medium popcorn. plus i got to load on the bbq/white cheddar seasoning--my favorite combo.

tomorrow is my birthday. i took the day off work so i can be pampered and sleep in. :) i like being pampered. looking forward to the cinnebar, cheap drinks!! im saving everyone money cuz you all are gonna be buyin my broke ass drinks! and they have jager on tap!!!! sweetness.

not sure whats in store for the rest of the weekend. i know there's a birthday bbq happening saturday for us cancer birthdays (thanks tish!), and i might, MIGHT go to the diverse/oh no show in san francisco. we'll see. im actually really hoping my sister has her baby so i can go veg out over at my parents house.

today is a maggiano's lunch. mmm mmm mmmmmmmmm. havent eaten there forever and im starving!

birthday wish list retraction...

2005-07-05T21:30:00.000-07:00

so i have to retract two items i had listed earlier from my birthday wishlist.

item #1: coldplay tickets. (i think my parents are getting them for me. :)
item #2: wonderfalls dvd. YEAH!

so dont buy me these!!!! ahaha. in case you were planning to or something.

tv watching time. i feel ill. need to rest up so im not sick on my birthday weekend. or as jeff calls it nicolekkah.

peace out.

nic

the space in which we travel in...

2005-07-05T10:32:00.000-07:00

this is the funniest thing ive read so far today.
..........................
its pop tarts for breakfast this morning. i was feeling nauseous, so decided i should try to eat something. then i remembered that last week when i went to get some pop tarts from the vending machine, they got stuck. i attempted to hit the machine but it wouldnt budge, so i just bought another package and saved one for now.

i just discovered half our staff arent working today. this makes me happy.
............................
my fourth of july was pretty nice. saw some fireworks. got to actually see rick's place, and hang out with him, teshia, joce and some more of their friends. i like hanging out with them, they drink really good wine. mmm.

my sister is still baby-less. its the waiting game at this point. once she goes into labor, im left to house and dog sit for my parents. im actually looking forward to it. its away from everyone, its quiet, tons of food stocked!, plus.... freakin' ON DEMAND!!!!!!!!!! im not going to want to leave the house, so its good i dont get cell phone reception, no one can bother me! :)

then there's my birthday. arg. no big group birthday dinner this year just bar visits. im thinking of starting at gordon biercsh, then going to the cinnebar and whatever happens from there, happens. im not really into planning or having some big-to-do, i just want to hang out with people and have complete control of the jukebox at the cinnebar. that would be rad.

birthday wishlist: gilmore girls season 3, movie theater passes (my therapy), lemony snicket books (10, 11), a new job, a new windshield,....... i dunno. whatever you are going to give me is fine. haha.
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plans for the rest of the day: mail some stuff i should have mailed a week or so ago, eat korean food for lunch (hopefully!), drop mail off at kscu, go to dinner w/ jocelyn (right??), attend general staff meeting, then go bowling (hopefully i wasnt kicked off the team for not attending last week).

im already sleepy. whats wrong with me? i am sleeping way too much lately.

now playing: various artists- xlr8r incite 24

amazingly productive... depending on how you look at life..

2005-07-03T00:45:00.000-07:00

today's accomplishments (as in... my lazy saturday)
* drove berenice home 'round 11 a.m.
* ate two corndogs.
* managed to not get out of my pj's until 7:30p.m.-ish. half an hour before lulu came by to go to kenny's party. i consider this my major accomplishment of the day.
* watched the rest of the wonderfalls dvds. this activity probably totaled about eight hours. this show is really really good. i find a lot of similar qualities in common with the main character. mostly the being moody and indecisive.
* washed two loads of laundry. arent clean sheets the best?
* watched bits of the live 8 coverage on mtv/vh1. spent a lot of that time trying to avoid seeing u2, thus avoiding the sharp shooting pains in my heart that i now associate with them. during my time viewing i would like to make the following observations: mtv/vh1 vj's have NO journalistic skills WHATSOEVER, who EVER gave maroon 5 permission to cover neil young should be shot, pete townsend can really rock the jean jacket, beyonce is a spaz onstage but unfortunately did not fall during *destiny's child's* performance, will smith still fucking sucks and could be easily replaced by anyone, ummm whatever. i have nothing more to say.
* ate a whole thing of sliced canned peaches.
* avoided worrying about a number of things that i am worrying about now, at this moment.
* spoke with my mom for twenty minutes. this reminded me that i am supposed to watch their dog/house once my sister has the baby. i hope my sister has it soon so that i can mooch of my parents food next week since i wont have money to eat. this isnt ghetto, my mom called me to see what kinda food i wanted to be stocked up for me.
* eventually i left the house and went to kennys birthday party. ate a lot of really good veggie/vegan food. hung out with people for a bit. watched lulu act loopy, and did my best to avoid kscu business related chatting for fear of getting into a major argument. oh, and saw a very disturbing dance move from someone i would never want to see dance. or really, dont like to see period. (the person)

today's revelations
* i need to stop drinking so much. i know that im very emotionally unstable, and the drinking makes it worse. note to self: become the designated driver more often, and stick with beer.
* i am contemplating more about the possibility of moving away (seattle/so-cal) after i graduate.
* i dont know what the hell im doing for fourth of july, or my birthday. this doesnt bother me in the least bit.
* i avoid answering my phone a lot more these days.
* becoming a hermit seems very likely.

tomorrow's plans
* start running again. exercising triggers happy mood changing feelings, and i could use that.
* pay my rent. also- deposit pennies so that this becomes possible.
* call laura and let her know that my drunk message i left her did not say that my sister had her baby and that im now an auntie.
* avoid more phone calls.
* watch entourage and six feet under (it moves back to sundays THIS week right?)
* possibly watch a movie earlier in the day. solo-movie watching is my therapy.
* train new mds at kscu. blah. not a high motivation on the list.

this is just sad...

2005-06-30T12:49:00.000-07:00

i just got overly excited by the bright pink folders i found in our supply cabinet. i snagged some for future use. its like temporary zoloft. arent those little zoloft pill-blob things so adorable?

when a simple thing like this makes you entirely too happy, ... can you say relocation?

also, im famished so it could be a factor.

currently listening: to my stomach growling! (where is lorna so i can go to lunch already!)

my new favorite trashy record label.

2005-06-30T10:32:00.000-07:00

retard disco.

i guess they've put out stuff from gravy train!!!! (im not necessarily THAT excited about gravy train!!!! its just that the four !'s are a part of their name). and now that ive been exposed to their (retard disco) latest releases, one in particular, im not surprised.

the one in particular is gene defcon- throw up & die. they are like a synth-punk version of the moldy peaches. hella potty-mouthed. the cd is pretty freakin' rad.

the other release is an ep is partyline- girls with glasses. its a new release that involves allison from bratmobile. its pretty rad girl punk stuff. plus they have a title track... "girls with glasses". and you know how much we rule.

im starving. who wants to bring me food, cuz im not sure WHEN i will get to take a lunch! pretty please?

now spinnin' in the cd rom drive: gene defcon- throw up and die (retard disco)

always feeling the need for change.

2005-06-29T10:56:00.000-07:00

in case you havent noticed, i have problems sticking with one design for my blog. like my hair, where i live, and other things in my life, i feel the constant need to change it up. this layout is more simplified. i like it. i'll try to take the font size down a notch.

i got some good news at work today. i will leave it at that, since im pretty sure my work spies on me regularly.

my friend julie is coming to visit from chicago. in fact, she could already be here. i think they are all going to an a's game, and avi is telling me to go, but i havent decided. maybe i can meet up w/ them later or definitely friday night for sure. bamboo 7? cinnebar? i havent seen julie in sooooo long. we keep up on each others lives through our blogs, haha. sad i know. when she lived out here everyone thought we were sisters or even confused us with eachother. im excited to hang out with her in some swanky san jose bars.

speaking of awesome bars. about two weeks ago, me and ryan went to this bar on north first street, it was called trials. im not sure if it was an irish pub, but they did have a lot of irish beers on tap. the place has lots of seating, a nice mix of older-mid twenty-somethings and up, good music, nice & funny bartenders, no obnoxious frat-boys, thus people are capable of holding conversations and it closed really early. i guess thats good for more of an after work kinda bar. they announced last call at around 11:30. then kicked most of us out by midnight.

okay. back to the daily grind. im in the process of booking campsites for our annual youth retreat-camping trip. we always camp at manresa state beach, its a nice area. scary at night, as you drive into the campsite entrance, there's fog and a big scary house on a hill. its like the house on haunted hill. last year i had to sleep in a kids tent because there wasnt enough room for everyone in the other tents. one of my youth, he actually slept outside. but i was too tall for the kids tent so i had to sleep diagonally. it sucked.

yours,
neeeecole

now playing: dj shadow- endtroducing...deluxe edition, disc 2: excessive ephemera (island-universal)

desperate apologies.......? or pleas of forgiveness.....? or one in the same....?

2005-06-27T19:26:00.000-07:00

today as i was driving home on highway 17... i was just passing the hamilton exit, or was nearly passing it, i cant remember,.... but i saw a sign on an overpass that read, "i sorry cha loopa". i thought of two things, 1) wow. thats a nice way of saying you're sorry to someone you love and 2) did that just say cha loopa? are they talking about a taco? and i also thought they had poor grammar or perhaps didnt speak english well.

i prefer to believe my initial thought. someone making an attempt to say sorry to someone they care about. its a nice thought. it made me smile in a sad way.

more stuff to come later... (im in a blog-writing mood, but i must concentrate on puting a dent in my stack of records i have left to review).

now listening & reviewing: smog- a river ain't too much to love (drag city).

choking on the thought of leaving...

2005-06-24T10:15:00.000-07:00

this morning as i was driving to work i had a revelation. the alkaline trio/rise against show is july 22............................(long pause)......................... i am leaving for vegas on july 21st. i bought my alkaline trio ticket monday. anyone need a ticket? =( damnity-damn-damn-damn! i was looking forward to this show sooooooooo friggin' much and now boooo.

oh well.

get over it nicole. you CAN'T GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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so i found someone angrier than nathan. :) this guy swears A LOT.
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ive had a bit of a ghetto week. on monday, my dsl got turned off. and last night when i got home i found that my cable was shut off. i hate responsibility right now. im tired. i wish for like at least one month i had someone else around who could take care of me and help with stuff.

speaking of R-E-S-P-O-N-S-I-B-I-L-I-T-Y, i signed up for my last semester of classes yesterday. ugh. most people don't have faith that i will graduate next semester. this is because i have to take a total of five classes (two of which are p.e. and one of the other ones includes a lab component). classes include: biostatistics (w/ a lab), the health care professional, strategic writing for the organization (public relations class), and jogging and intermediate bowling. yes im intermediate. the jogging and bowling classes are twice a week, one after the other. i will be floating back and forth between classes and work and it should all be incredibly fun. basically after i start school, i will see you all at the end of december.

my schedule is going to SUCK. but i HAVE to do it. i have to. there's no way around it. i am getting depressed still being in school at 24 (i turn 24 in exactly two weeks from now). i feel stuck here until i graduate.
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on to the weekend festivities...
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last nite i saw cinderella man. i really liked it, and im sure crowe will get a oscar nod, but my boy paul giamatti really deserves one. it was just a really great touchy-feely (in a good way) ron howard-directed story. though its a boxing movie (although its more of a story about the man and not the sport... obviously), there are some really nice romantic moods to the film. awwwwwwwww.

tonite im gonna be slummin' it over at the caravan. colin and olgie's band, "touch my rash" is playing and i cant miss that. especially after seein' colin rock the sinead o'connor and olga rock the ac/dc last weekend at karaoke. if anything, caravan has cheap beer. and ive been a good girl all week, so im due for at least one or two beers. hopefully jocelyn will come out so we can see her before she goes off to cancun for a week or so.

tomorrow is eid's b-day party and michael's grad. celebratation. that should be good, just have to make sure no one wrestles/breakdances to the point of breaking/spilling things.

currently listening to: alkaline trio- goddamnit (im still mad im going to miss this show!)